today i was so annoyed while i was on my everyday activities becoz symptoms i have
i remembered this video about suicide with channel living well with scz
she said i will never forget what she said and i hope you all never forgetting that !!!
suicide rate among ppl with scz about 50% and death rate is about 10% !!! impossible !!!
so today i begin to talk with lauren in imagination talking to her photo
i said
-----yeah i want to suicide
omg half of ppl with scz go and try to suicide !!!
omg 10% of ppl with scz dead becoz they successfully suicide !!!
why they suicide ??!!
becoz they have delusion like they are torturing for YEARS but this not true they are SCZ why they did that ??!!
and they die young of course 30 or 40 yo !!!
why they did that ??!!
if they continue to living they will see happy times like all living ppl thats will happen
why they believe these illogic thinking they have
why they believe that they coward ?! and they are coward ppl becoz they living in such conditions !!!and they cant suicide !!!
why they didnt go and talk to ppl like them and joke with them and have fun with them
thats really very regrettable in fact
so nice ppl that go and suicide and die for no reason !!!
yeah i want to suicide right now
but i wont do that
i am not mad
thank you