What am I doing with my life?

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22, soon to be 23. No skills, no experience, no talents. No intrests, don’t care, ciggaretes and coffee are my highlight of the day.
No need for a social life. Could eazy live with just food/ciggaretes/coffee and internet and be content. With that.
No perspective, no real purpose, no desire to do anything

Need money for ciggaretes and coffee, need internet for entertainment and that basically it.

So Whta am I doing with my life?
I feel like I’m going nowhere, I don t wanna disappoint my mother and sister sohats why I keep going. But it’s all to much, stress everywhere, I don’t find peace in mostly anything. I should die and be free.

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Dude you sound super depressed. I would focus on quitting cigarettes asap. They give a temporary boost in some hormones at first, bit then they drop and that’s probably what you’re going through now.

Cigarettes = depression

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Surviving this disease is a full time purpose.

But yeah. The cigarettes probably aren’t going to help with that so see what you can do.

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@anon92887483 I disagree with this statement.

Cigarettes are not a sign of depression. If you do your research, you would find that cigarettes are a way of self medicating when it comes to SZ

@anon92220549 you are simply living in the moment. Each day is something new.

Sending good vibes your way.

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I never said cigarettes are a sign of depression I said they cause it. They are “depressant” drugs like alcohol

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They are classified as a stimulant/depressant.

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Yes. They both stimulate and depress at the same time so the smoker feels depressed and anxious.

Like all drugs they give a surge of short term neurotransmitters/hormones then the effect becomes less and less until the user is depressed

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Of course, if the user is a chainsmoker.

Everything is beneficial in moderation.

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Is crack useful in moderation? Or poisonous mushrooms?

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Cigarettes does not equal depression. No they aren’t good for you, but it’s not like that is new information. Plenty of people smoke who do not have depression.
Hang in there. Look up hobbies on the internet and see if any of them sound interesting to you.

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If those things float your boat, then yes.

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Consider dabbling in programming until you find something interesting. What interests me is data science, embedded systems and game dev, and I can’t seem to choose, but I really should.

Game dev might make you feel good, and possibly pay for small things. Try something! Upwork.com has lots of programming jobs available.

If I was your age again, I would go to community college and get a CS/EE degree. So much time wasted.

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I’m a 60 year old male, and a couple of months ago I started to think what I would have to show for my life if I died within a year. I realized I had nothing. I have done nothing. I didn’t get married. I didn’t have kids. I really have nothing to show for my life. It was an unpleasant feeling. I realized that about all they could write on my tombstone would be “He was here.” It felt very painful to me to have to die on those terms. You need to think if you want to be in my situation when you are sixty.

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Youre young man, you still have time. That said Im in the same boat, I got no motivation to do anything with my life either, I just isolate. Youll make it through, hang in there

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Don’t worry I am the same. I do nothing I have nothing. No boyfriend no kids. Live at home with mother. Don’t see it ever changing. I don’t really care what is said about me after I am gone. I struggled with this illness. The worst mind disease ever. That was enough.

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You’re living. This is life. This , is it. Enjoy it the best u can.

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I kept my passion for games mostly by force. I don’t play most games for very long anymore, but I’m still excited by the future.

I found D&D5e really fun eventually and have been hooked, now I look forward every week to see how each story I’m in evolves.

It took me years to get here, and I’m sure I’ll still have a ways to go.

I’m not counting myself out.

I’ve suffered too much to throw it all away because I’m in a low ebb in the flow of my life.

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Still no change. I feel like I’m dying. I don’t know what to do

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You don’t just have to accept your life as it is, you can improve it and be happier by finding your place in life

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You must want something. You must want something in life. You must want something out of life. Some goals are possible no matter how small. Maybe you could make some small goals that you have a good chance of obtaining them to build up your confidence and then move on to slightly bigger goals. I always figure that everybody has some kind of potential. If you are seeing a therapist, ask her/him if there’s anything they see about you that could help you accomplish something. You’re in a rut and you are a victim of black/white thinking. You see your situation as almost a 100 % hopeless but it’s not true.