I spent the last few hours over at my brotherās house. He has a very nice house and a family and a future.
And it made me completely depressed and upset. I just came away feeling worthless. Although I feel a bit better now.
He and his wife are high functioning even by normie standards.
All my family is doing better than me. I can relate. But when I do well they are all happy for me. Family can be Hills and valleys, but they are mostly good. Sorry you had a bad time. Itās not even the holidays!
I decided to go to the library to mix with people. I left the house in a good mood. I left the library in a bad mood.
What happened? 15151515
I am sure they have so many difficulties and struggles too.
Never compare yourself to other people in any way.
You are in a different place in lifeā¦ different path. Another day is not promisedā¦ so chill, live for the day. Do what you like. On the bright side, you are not in a miserable relationship, you do not have to worry that you have to wake up at 5 am and go to a miserable job with a horrible boss 
because you have no choice.
And if you are lonely, try finding a girlfriend ? Hope you feel better soon 
I noticed three people who set me off, one a normal man, one a woman who seemed to be his wife, who was quite disheveled and who said hello to me, and a girl I have been imitating who seems to be something of an idiot and who is always smiling.
Sorry to hear thisā¦I hope your next outing is better. Please take good care!
I know you have things about yourself that you should justifiably be proud of and be happy about. You write great poetry. In AA they talk about ājudging your insides by other peopleās outsidesā. The way I look at it regarding myself is, yes, I donāt have a house and kids, and I did miss out on that, but not having those things frees me up to pursue more creative things. And donāt think the game is up. You still have time to get some of the things you want.
I donāt feel bad comparing myself to others. but I know the feeling. i am lazy, useless, canāt have a job, cant make a living.
@everhopeful man, my family is way better off than me, I canāt compare myself to their livesā¦I go to their cookouts and holidays but they are oblivious to my pain of how I live. I am so tired of being poor.
That is what I preach too. 