I spent the last few hours over at my brother’s house. He has a very nice house and a family and a future.
And it made me completely depressed and upset. I just came away feeling worthless. Although I feel a bit better now.
He and his wife are high functioning even by normie standards.
All my family is doing better than me. I can relate. But when I do well they are all happy for me. Family can be Hills and valleys, but they are mostly good. Sorry you had a bad time. It’s not even the holidays!
I decided to go to the library to mix with people. I left the house in a good mood. I left the library in a bad mood.
I am sure they have so many difficulties and struggles too.
Never compare yourself to other people in any way.
You are in a different place in life… different path. Another day is not promised… so chill, live for the day. Do what you like. On the bright side, you are not in a miserable relationship, you do not have to worry that you have to wake up at 5 am and go to a miserable job with a horrible boss because you have no choice.
And if you are lonely, try finding a girlfriend ? Hope you feel better soon
I noticed three people who set me off, one a normal man, one a woman who seemed to be his wife, who was quite disheveled and who said hello to me, and a girl I have been imitating who seems to be something of an idiot and who is always smiling.
Sorry to hear this…I hope your next outing is better. Please take good care!
I know you have things about yourself that you should justifiably be proud of and be happy about. You write great poetry. In AA they talk about “judging your insides by other people’s outsides”. The way I look at it regarding myself is, yes, I don’t have a house and kids, and I did miss out on that, but not having those things frees me up to pursue more creative things. And don’t think the game is up. You still have time to get some of the things you want.
I don’t feel bad comparing myself to others. but I know the feeling. i am lazy, useless, can’t have a job, cant make a living.
@everhopeful man, my family is way better off than me, I can’t compare myself to their lives…I go to their cookouts and holidays but they are oblivious to my pain of how I live. I am so tired of being poor.
That is what I preach too.