I had the following way of thinking when psychotic:
If someone makes a compound statement with verb and noun , they form a quadrant.
example, go walk and eat ice-cream
| Column 1 | Column 2 | Column 3 | Column 4 |
|---|---|---|---|
| go eat | eat walk | ||
| go icecream | icecream walk |
Basically a person receives all these messages go eat, eat and walk, go (for) ice cream, and icecream and walk
I had a theory that a person who was very compliant was at the very intersection of the statement in agreement, and others can be in other places in the quadrant.
A person may be like this:
| Column 1 | Column 2 | Column 3 | Column 4 |
|---|---|---|---|
| go eat 60% | eat and walk 5% | ||
| go for icecream 25% | walk and icecream 10% |
That person would be somewhere in the top left of the quadrant.
I was thinking there was codes like this that underlie people that automatically sort them into certain space and put people at odds
So this kind of arragement:
| Column 1 | Column 2 | Column 3 | Column 4 |
|---|---|---|---|
| Person A 100% | |||
| Person B 100% |
would be at odds
I was messed up about meds and was thinking stuff like simple obediences like take meds and be rational
as creating intersections be taking, being (on) meds, take reason, rational medicine
I was becoming overintellectual so I guess I was 100% taking reason and not being on meds, be taking anything else, and against rational medicine.
I was doing this in my head with so many codes, but they had to be a certain grammar structure and needed very charitable interpretations
I was thinking that codes underlie everyone’s position in mind space and the codes and degrees they accept them align them together and against eachother
There was more than this, but i guess ultimately I was doing it because I saw people just being obedient to codes to varying degrees, was not complying for whatever reason, and was seeing people in a persecution system
