Hey, everybody. It’s been awhile since I’ve been on the forum cuz I’ve been incapacitated. I was having strong suicidal urges and have been in the hospital for 4 weeks awaiting transfer to Anchorage for ECT. I got to the new hospital today and will be starting ECT next week. My therapist called the Mobile Crisis Team and they committed me a month ago, but I’m voluntary now.
In other news, i am no longer on Cobenfy. My doctor decided the benefits outweigh the risks and restarted me on clozapine. They do frequent EKGs and so far I’m still on a subtherapeutic dose and we’re titrating slowly. I’ve had some tachycardia on it but nothing major. It HAS been helping the suicidal thoughts.
This hospital in Anchorage is like a country club compared to my usual hospital! We’re allowed to keep our phones in our rooms and eat with real plastic knives and forks! It’s only a 12-bed unit and doesn’t even have a quiet room. I’ve never been in such a high-faluting place! Anyway, I’ve promised my usual hospital staff that I’ll behave myself, being an ambassador and setting a precedent for future transfers. There’s so many ways to hurt yourself here…but it is considered a lower acuity level unit than my usual haunt.
So, take it easy and know that WhiteRaven is safe and doing what is necessary to stay alive. Hugs to all…
I was concerned about you. I’m sorry that you haven’t been feeling well, but it sounds like you’re getting the help you need. I’ve known people who’ve had ECT and it changed their lives so much for the better.
Yeah…they said not to make any big decisions until after ECT but i was even considering moving back to Florida. We’ll see. The doctors and social workers did a LOT of consultations to get me here, so I’ll do my best. I don’t think I’m worth all this trouble, but maybe they see something in me that i don’t.
