I’m dreading all this, im not sleeping as much, i feel petrified of whats going to be the result of his operation, cancer, chemo, breathing tube, scarring marks?? Im thinking of everything, and when this is over it could all happen again because he’s to go for routine checks every 3 months with camera to check for the rest of his life. My eyes keep watering today as i get near crying point but i cant cry at all. I just gotta stop feeling so depressed about it all.