The missing member thread

I make one of these every few months it seems. I’ve been wondering whatever happened to @Aziz the last couple of days, so I thought I would post another.

Also still wondering about @Pandy , but I think she’s gone for good.

Aziz might be also, IDK.

Who else is missing?

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Havent seen @LilyoftheValley

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@Mountainman @FatMama

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According to her profile, she was online 6 hours ago.

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Days? I haven’t seen Aziz posting for months. I’m worried about him. He seemed to be suffering from negatives and risperidone kept him bedridden, and the medical bureaucracy kept him from trying vraylar. It seemed to be a sucky situation! Who wouldn’t be depressed?

You mean you’ve seen him posting? I hope all is good!

Edit! You mean you have been thinking what happened to him the last couple of days? My bad!

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I remember @Aziz got into fight like with moderators about some rules, forum was very strict during the change of the season (end of the autumn and the beginning of winter) I

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I meant that I’ve been thinking about it the last couple days.

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The thing is, I’m in the same situation as Aziz. I’m mostly bedridden. It sucks. I can’t drop olanzapine either or I’ll get delusional.

And I’m tired about it. I’m also on paxil so I don’t feel depressed about it. I could also eat a horse and still be hungry. These drugs make you lazy and fat. It sucks!

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If olanzapine completely eliminates the delusions id say its worth it.

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My only symptom is slight paranoia and I hear voices. No delusions though.

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To me is the other way around: no voices, no paranoia but I keep having mild delusions

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What’s your current medical regimen?

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Currently only on Invega (xeplion) depot equivalent if 9mg oral tablet or 4mg of risperidone. I stayed on pretty hefty dose of haloperidol, it might have a permanent effect on me

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Haven’t seen @Daze in awhile.

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Haven’t seen @EverDream in about a year. I hope you’re well EverDream. I’m still wishing you well.

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Hi, @Bowens!!

I’m so completely touched that you were asking after me! That’s just so nice. Thank you.

I’m still doing ECT. And yes, it’s finally helping. That, combined with a med change to Clozaril (which is a pain in the ass because I have to get bloodwork every week), and I’m doing a little better. Things were very dark and scary for awhile. And I’m so forgetful from the ECT. But I’m starting to want to do things again. It’s just the doing them that’s hard; I still have monsters in my head telling me no, I’m bad, I should die, I’m going to die. So it’s just waiting on the med dosage to get high enough to make that go away. And in the meantime, fight it.

I gained a lot of weight from the Clozaril, though. And I just started working out last week to, hopefully, help. Going to a boxing gym. It’s nice to punch things!

I’m reading books on how to make things a habit; instead of waiting for some lightening bolt of inspiration, you just do it. And the inspiration is a process.

Trying out a new therapist today.

We’ll see…

How are you?

Please forgive me being forgetful – it included getting on this forum and saying hi.

What’s going on in your world?

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WOw, hi @Pandy . I thought we lost you. Glad to hear that you are making progress.

Whats going on with me? Hmm… Lets see…

  1. I think you disappeared before I started playing guitar. Thats my main obsession these days.

  2. Been trying reduced dose of meds. I cant seem to go too low or I get paranoid though. Finding the right balance is a long term project.

  3. Dog developing cherry eye in other eye now.

  4. Having some joint pain last few months, trying to figure that out. Not sure if its meds or weight issues or what. Or maybe both.

I dont know what else.

Please check in with us from time to time. :slight_smile: . Really good to hear from you and I hope you continue to improve.

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Nice to see you back @pandy.

:heart:

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Are you still here @anon39736208 ???

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Thank you!

Just, please, forgive if my ECT-brain doesn’t allow me to remember all the details of everything here.

I think it will be good for me to get re-involved with this forum! In addition to actually leaving the house for my boxing classes.

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