I make one of these every few months it seems. I’ve been wondering whatever happened to @Aziz the last couple of days, so I thought I would post another.
Also still wondering about @Pandy , but I think she’s gone for good.
Days? I haven’t seen Aziz posting for months. I’m worried about him. He seemed to be suffering from negatives and risperidone kept him bedridden, and the medical bureaucracy kept him from trying vraylar. It seemed to be a sucky situation! Who wouldn’t be depressed?
You mean you’ve seen him posting? I hope all is good!
Edit! You mean you have been thinking what happened to him the last couple of days? My bad!
I remember @Aziz got into fight like with moderators about some rules, forum was very strict during the change of the season (end of the autumn and the beginning of winter) I
The thing is, I’m in the same situation as Aziz. I’m mostly bedridden. It sucks. I can’t drop olanzapine either or I’ll get delusional.
And I’m tired about it. I’m also on paxil so I don’t feel depressed about it. I could also eat a horse and still be hungry. These drugs make you lazy and fat. It sucks!
Currently only on Invega (xeplion) depot equivalent if 9mg oral tablet or 4mg of risperidone. I stayed on pretty hefty dose of haloperidol, it might have a permanent effect on me
I’m so completely touched that you were asking after me! That’s just so nice. Thank you.
I’m still doing ECT. And yes, it’s finally helping. That, combined with a med change to Clozaril (which is a pain in the ass because I have to get bloodwork every week), and I’m doing a little better. Things were very dark and scary for awhile. And I’m so forgetful from the ECT. But I’m starting to want to do things again. It’s just the doing them that’s hard; I still have monsters in my head telling me no, I’m bad, I should die, I’m going to die. So it’s just waiting on the med dosage to get high enough to make that go away. And in the meantime, fight it.
I gained a lot of weight from the Clozaril, though. And I just started working out last week to, hopefully, help. Going to a boxing gym. It’s nice to punch things!
I’m reading books on how to make things a habit; instead of waiting for some lightening bolt of inspiration, you just do it. And the inspiration is a process.
Trying out a new therapist today.
We’ll see…
How are you?
Please forgive me being forgetful – it included getting on this forum and saying hi.