Weirdest feeling has been creeping up on me at night. It makes me stand at the window and passively watch the water.
Negative symptom is punctuated with apathy and lack of want or lack of motivation and lack of desire.
This new feeling isn’t apathy though I’m not striving to do anything. There is also a lack of want, but only because I feel I have what I need. There is a lack of motivation to change this feeling, but I feel I would work to keep it. It’s been happening a few times. When I get back from the parents house and they are all fine, and the kid sis is in her room studying, and the place is calm.
I’ve been told it sounds like contentment, satisfaction…
I never thought I’d live long enough to get a taste of this.
However my paranoid side has to tell me… “It’s probably negative symptom wrapped in chocolate.”