Boston, Massachusetts, United States has a large Irish community I think. Every year they have a huge St. Patrick’s Day parade.
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Whassup, y’all? I hope you’re all hanging in there.
I survived my day, chillin now.
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Slept for two hours and now im awake smoking for some reason whilst listening to music lol
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The boy Chihuahua dog stole my pillow. Now what do I sleep on?!
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I finished watching the AI lecture. It talked about chatgpt. It was very basic. It gave a broad overview on what AI is.
Now, I’m on week 7. Week 7 is SQL.
I want to learn physics after this class. It was my weakest subject. I have a lot of books/textbooks on the subject. I got interested in physics (philosophy) after I developed schizophrenia to make sense of my reality. It’s a challenging subject. I failed physics in High School around 18 years ago. I haven’t formally taken a physics class since. But, I have read a few books and took an intro course on coursera.
I think it’s a bucket list type thing. I don’t need it. I want to learn the undergraduate (lower-div) mechanics, electromagnetism, and maybe optics/quantum. I would do it on my own or independently.
More importantly, I need to work on myself (selfish) like regularly doing hygiene (shower, brush teeth, change clothes). I need a schedule.
I want to get a job some day. It’s been 15 years or so since I’ve worked. I need to work on being more independent and self-sufficient.
Zyprexa is working well for my delusions.
I like learning. I’m learning the basics of computer programming right now. I don’t need it, really. I like challenging myself.
I’ve given up on college now. I regret not getting an AA/AS when I had the chance years ago. Now, I just have ‘some college’. I’m middle age now. I have 3 years of college and nothing to show for it. I’m a lot slower now so I don’t think I could do it. I have insecurities and low self esteem.
It’s expensive. I don’t really need a college degree to stock shelves or w/e. These are min wage jobs with no benefits and are probably part time.
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After 11pm still not sleepy ugh
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Hey TheCanuk, how are you this evening?
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Lungs feel tight lol
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How much have you been smoking?
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Not that much, maybe I was smoking a fair bit before going to sleep though
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I’m coming to terms with the idea that instead of questioning why I feel a certain why mentally, I should focus on controlling it. So instead of panicking I should work on being calmer - like paranoia, I shouldn’t focus on triggers because it’s too late and stops you also from going near or around them. Instead I should be more like “hey, you’re thinkingtoo quickly. slow down” kinda thing
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Morning everyone. Up super early today. It’s almost 5am now.
We should have our car back at the end of the week. £900 it’s cost us for the repair. My mum and dad gave £300 towards. We saved up the rest.
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Morning everyone. Had a good sleep.
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Didn’t realise it was 5AM already. Might as well continue with the books
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I’m hoping I can get a ride to a local store tomorrow that buys and sales movies, video games, toys, comics etc. I have some bs Star Wars toys I bought a long time ago at Walmart and I no longer have a need for them so I’m hoping they’ll buy them.
Unless if their policy has changed when you sale goods to them you have an option between getting cash or store credit with store credit typically being the higher amount.
They’ll probably give me like a 5 dollar bill for 4 toys and then kick me in my ass on my way out LOL! 
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Tony, you’re too smart to not go to school though. I mean I can’t tell you what to do but I think if you got an associate’s degree you would feel really good about yourself. I have a friend with sz and he has trouble with cognition and anxiety but he’s going to community college now for his A.A. That’s just my 2 cents.
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Hey @Montezuma how are you doing?
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Hey there! I’m doing pretty good. I just ordered a couple old movies on DVD. 
How about yourself?
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Hey, cool! What movies did you get? I’m doing ok thanks! And its quite good - i think i’ve come to the end of enjoying instant gratification. I actually hate being lazy and drinking coffee and scrolling facebook or pinterest now.
I now prefer applying myself to harder challenges. Its a welcome change.
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