I quit all my medication about a month ago, and I’m a bit afraid and feel discouraged.
I told my psychiatrist I’d had enough of the side effects and that I wouldn’t take any medication, so he took me off of everything but two he convinced me to keep.
I’ve been on every antipsychotic I know of, but they all give side effects and I don’t want to deal with them anymore.
So now that I’m off my meds for a month I’m feeling absolutely crazy, I’m thinking awful things and I can’t hear anyone or focus with everything going on… I absolutely can’t stand it
But I can’t go back on those medications. I’m not exactly sure what to do about my intense paranoia.
My friend told me to go into the hospital or he would call the police, but i talked him out of it.
It’s just not fair to me. Why can’t I have a normal brain.
I’m just really freaking out right now…
zyprexa and atarax, he took me off saphris ativan lunesta luvox and lithium.
He said if i really didn’t want to take the zyprexa to cut it into 4 pieces and take one and see if it still causes side effects. and he upped he atarax dosage to 100mg because I keep having panic attacks but I don’t want ativan anymore
I was on Zyprexa for a long time and it always made me feel like I always needed to keep moving all the time. It was like torture. If you can just take a small dose without side effects that would be great. I was on the max dose because for some reason my psychiatrists thought I was worse than I really was.
Side effects got better for me over time as my body got used to the meds. Still not perfect but I can live with it. I take Invega, clozapine and Wellbutrin. I know for me it’s impossible to live without meds.
I’m always thinking about stopping my injection. It’s messing with my heart and I have erectile dysfunction and can’t get in shape, cant think etc. This is the most stable I’ve been in my whole life though. I doubt I will be able to come off it, I’ll be tortured by constant weird thoughts until I I have an episode most likely.
Have you tried Geodon and/or Seroquel? They’ve controlled my symptoms for years without intolerable side effects. They do weaken my body, but they don’t dull my brain. A lot of people swear by Geodon.
They all have side-effects. Some people manifest some of them others don’t. Medication is the biggest catch-22 szs are faced with. take the medicine and be physically unwell or dont and be mentally unwell.
Are you trying any therapy in addition to meds? I found that it was the therapy that got me over the hump and allowed me to function on much lower doses. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) and also conventional psychological therapy.
I totally understand, and I hate the weight I’ve put on with clozapine, but I’ve tried all of the other meds and clozapine is the only one that tamps down the psychosis and actually makes me have less suicidal ideation. I used to always think about ways to die, but now I don’t very often. I DO need to exhibit more self control when eating…but not til the Christmas cookies are gone!
I quit all my meds about maybe 4 months ago including a slow taper since januaray. If you cannot concentrate or feel homicidal or suicidal i would absolutely take the meds. Im doing okay myself but i did feel a certain perhaps false sense of comfort on meds and i really feel like im not a role model in terms of my views but thats my perogative.