I studied self in a way that what would i do in a situation, and got to know i dont listen to others than my own effort of getting it done right by self. So thought to explore this option of self learning, also main thing to note here is even this self learning does not work arround sz.
If i have only 5 % ability to do a task, focus on this 5, rest is history. By the way i am just speaking of self, i too burned down my dairy , it was no good i felt i exposed self though books, now i am here exposing self here online.
Yes, psychologist is very use full, but my days are over, they tried their best. If i dont understand them they will never able to understand me.
You know my last visit to psychologist told me to go kill your self. That too indirectly.
I will tell you what he said, he shared a story,
There where, 5 students,
First student passed the exams with good rank , and got a well paid job.
Second, just completed the exam and took over his fatherās business.
Third, failed and went in search of a job which he can afford.
Fourth, failed and retook his exam and cleared.
Fifth, failed and hanged him self.
The way he spoke of fifth, he did not even say it properly , he just looked up and made me look up, to the hook that he had for the ceiling fan, i gave a though for a long time,
Yes i can consider the first four and be positive, but he said it a way that i was broken, he just gave up on me, after all the things i did what he told.
I think the thing made him angry was i started to smoke and started to plan for my higer studies. Because i had failed in masters.
Because of my psychologist effort i got a job and excelled,
I think i went wrong when i took the first puff after 4 years.
My the idea of higer studies was in me before smoking,
I started to smoke because i asked for approval at home and my psychologist,
At home they said no and psychologist narrated this story.