I am honestly very happy with my watercolour technique right now.
I like where Iām going with my expression. I have faith I will keep on improving this year. I will never be ready, I will always have room get better. but I feel hopeful!
This is a watercolour portrait of a special someone.
my momās cat is now gone. she was sick and put to sleep at the age of 15. I feel sad because I loved that kitty too, she was a good kitty. made me think of my own kitty I lost 2,5 years ago. still I am not able to get a new cat, it is too soon. maybe some day. I am going to paint a gravestone on my momās catās grave. I have already painted a gravestone to my own cat, her grave is in my momās garden. itās a pretty place, it has flowers blooming in the summer. they will be buried in the same place. thereās a lantern there so we can put candles on their grave, and the stones will be there to remind us of them.
Last week I was in dentist and had root canal done. it was horrible, but now it is over and I hope I wonāt have to go through this ever again.
my budget is completely destroyed by my dentist visits. I get bills in the mail and every bill is bigger than the one before. I donāt know how to get the money to pay my bills. and I went to public dentist, not a private one.
my journey with getting rid of clozapine has been going fine. I have tried to fix my sleep schedule and that has been ok. Iām now at 125mg of clozapine per day. I am looking forward to be completely clozapine free some day. I am tired of this medication! Iām on Abilify too, and the dose to it can be fixed, if needed. I think I can do with only one AP.
The schedule with reducing my clozapine dose is very very slow. Itās -25mg every 3-4 months. so sloooooooooooowwww. but that is the best for my body. Iāve been on clozapine for 17 years.
my life is ok I guess but some days are harder than others.
I am waiting for the spring and warmer weathers. I have nice summer clothing I canāt wait to wear.
I know nobody reads this post but that is ok, I am just writing this for myself.
So yeah. but if you did read, thatās great, I wish you a nice weekend!