I want to see her and she said it would be cool to hang out, but i don’t think i can like her as just a freind. She broke up with me in way that i can’t stop thinking about. She said she didn’t think that she was good for me anymore because she’s so busy with school. Which is just wrong to be honest. I cared more for my own life than ever when we were together. I can accept that i might have a shity life and slowley let myself deteriorate mentally till i just end it some day, knowing I’ll have to fake a smile until then and mabey only a couple of people will ever see it coming mabey. But i couldn’t accept that knowing i might have a future with her. If i showed any sighns of being sadder with her it was because for once in my life i was trying.
I don’t know how to react to it still. Part of me wants to believe she still cares for me, and wants to comfort her and make it clear that she was the best thing that ever happend to me and that it can still work. But the other part of me believes she only broke up with me that way to try to be polite, to make it seem like she was thinking of me even though it’s because she couldn’t handle it, and i should just get over it already and accept the relationship we have.
Im not sure what to do. I want to be with her still, but i don’t want to make her uncomfortable and i don’t want to make her to get together with me just because she feels bad for me and not because she wants to.