It happens every time. 4 or 5 days of feeling wonderful, on top of the world, full of ideas, full of energy, a taste of beauty and freedom… Then the crash. Such a brief moment of sweetness, punished by a sudden crushing fall into depression, fear and despair. 
It’s so unfair. I wonder what it is like to live without mood swings… I have no idea.
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I get crashes every few days too but I don’t have a mood disorder. My doc recently upped my dosage to see if it would make a difference.
Sorry you have to go through this though. At least you’re getting some good days? I seem to have neutral days and bad days.
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I have only bad days @everhopeful and the more the time passes the more I hate Israel.
I will only be content if I am able to move somewhere abroad one day.
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I’m diagnosed schizoaffective, so I suppose in a way I’m lucky that I get to feel really good sometimes as a balance to the depression. I had to stop taking my lithium because of side effects and am currently not on a mood stabiliser although my psychiatrist said I can try lamotrigine if necessary. She did up my aripiprazole as that is supposed to have mood stabilising properties as well as ap, but it’s obviously not enough. Only problem is my appt isn’t for weeks yet. I might have to phone my community nurse and see if something can be done.
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you need to restart yourself every time you go down. Ups and downs mainly!
Some days I only waste time and can not even shower. Other days I do work of a whole week.
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