I won’t give them the satisfaction

[77nick77]

The neighbors sit out back talking in the carport. They’re out there a few times a day. Sometimes when they think of me they start cracking up and laughing loud like just the thought of me is the funniest thing on earth. They must realize I can hear them.

I have mixed feelings about it, My first thought is what kind of fuc*ed up people are they when I’m treating them with respect when I see them and I try to be nice and they act nice. But then it’s like that never happened and they sit out there with big belly laughs at my expense. It makes me mad and I feel I don’t deserve that treatment. Sometimes I admit it hurts my feelings.

Today I laughed back because I think it’s funny that they’re two grown adults who don’t do anything but hang out in some carport. They got it and that shut them up. But still, how can they treat me so good to my face and then laugh at me like I deserve no respect? That’s why I think they’re just mean fuced up people. I’ve been through hell and struggled my whole life and faced life challenges and some fuced up people are going to laugh at me like I’m nothing? Makes me feel like just giving up.

[shutterbug]

@77nick77

Sometimes when they think of me…

You doing okay man? Sounds like your positive symptoms are ramping up again.

[Moonbeam]

@77nick77 There’s no way you can know what your neighbors are thinking. Therefore, you can’t possibly know what they’re laughing about.

Can I ask why you assume your neighbors were thinking about you before they laughed?

[77nick77]

I’m functioning and doing everything I’m supposed to.

[77nick77]

Because I’ve known them for three years.
It’s pretty obvious.

[Cragger]

F*** them, man. Just look where it’s coming from. Not worth it

[Moonbeam]

You don’t have any way of knowing what they’re thinking, even if you’ve known them for three years.

Is it possible that your neighbors are just annoying and noisy people? And perhaps you’re very sensitive to noise?

I’m asking because I’m very sensitive to noise and noisy people really bother me.

[Orbeezlight]

You sound hurt and stressed. It’s a symptom of scz that people are antagonising you, harassing, laughing, bullying whatever. Just try to distract yourself. Do you have headphones. Can you move away?
It very distressing when we feel bullied but believe me it’s your brain chemistry giving you a hard time.
Who cares if they laugh at you. What idiots would do that anyways.
What I learn when I feel this all the time. Is so what, you have to get used to people disrespecting you, laughing, bulling whatever. Most people don’t even respect or like themselves let alone others and most don’t have the emotional capability to tip toe around us scz so our feelings don’t get hurt.
You gotta have control of your emotions and not give a f#$%!!!
I wish you peace and quiet and wellness and stability.

[Jayster]

Good wishes, Nick

[iconoclast_01]

My Mom used to say “Consider the source.”