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I struggle to believe that I have this

Thanks kindness. I reasoned to myself that they don’t give out this diagnosis on a whim, but I only recently got it offcially changed from bipolar with psychotic features. I wasn’t forthcoming about all of my symptoms for years.

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It’s hard for me to admit it also. I keep saying to myself “I can’t believe I have sz.” It is not part of my delusions either. I think it is just a hard thing to admit.

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It is kind of hard to admit and it’s not as socially acceptable as telling people you have depression or anxiety. Even bipolar sounds better than sz. In fact, they asked me if I’d rather keep my official diagnosis as bipolar because of the stigma attached to sz. What’s the point though? Only doctors see the official diagnosis and they don’t care.

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@PlateOfBiscuits ,

I was in a van taking me back to my house (I had returned from a trip to NY) yesterday, and a guy in the van said he was in the navy. I was in the navy, but I didn’t say anything. I didn’t want to say I was discharged due to schizophrenia.

That made me feel sad.

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I’m sorry I can relate because my dream of playing college soccer never happened because of my problems.

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I used to be really creative and artistic before I got ill and meds take it away from me even more. Sorry to hear that both of you have been through similar.

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Sorry I was trying to reply to kindness.

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No worries :grinning:

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People out there, I’ve had schizophrenia for a long time, and let me tell you, get a grip on your symptoms–the fact that you have mental illness, and do your damndest to take care of yourself, by consistently taking your medicines on time, and have the med times on your phone like clockwork, keep your appointments, learn about your mental illness, if your don’t deal with this problem, it will bite your little butt. Take time to nurture yourself, pace yourself in your tasks, give yourself mercy in a realistic way, and when your medicine gets ineffective,well, that’s where your shrink comes in, get you a med change, and you don’t have to go to a mental hospital to get that done–they can give your directions on how to step yourself down on your old medicine and up on your new medicine, to make the med change effective.

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Thanks William. That all sounds very sensible. I do take my meds everyday and don’t think the Government is testing microwave weapons on me any more. So, I guess that’s progress.

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I know exactly how you feel. Taking toxic drugs just to prevent something that may not happen seems like a high price to pay.

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Very difficult question. I want to say there is no way to check schizophrenic beliefs. If some hallucinations shared by two or more people than there is a chance. I personally feel my belief only be proved by hallucinations.

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I’m not thrilled about being told I have to take meds for the rest of my life either.

I would be interested to know what your delusions are, who’s voice you hear and what they say

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In the beginning of my illness, I was doing so well that I was kind of in denial and thought that my symptoms were an isolated part of my life. Years later, the illness kicked me in the butt and now I choose to believe that I have the illness because the alternative is unthinkable. I have really bad and dangerous delusions.

I’ve been diagnosed Paranoid Schizophrenic for 8 years now.

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My main one was that a shadowy government agency was testing microwave weapons on me and harrassing me as part of a clandestine experiment. I was also getting spiritual truths about life revealed to me through metaphors on TV and Youtube.

I also thought I’d been initiated into a secret society like the freemasons, only more secret and that they were telepathically communicating with me and telling me what to do with my life.

The meds have cleared up most of that and the voices. The voices were sometimes people I knew, Government operatives or members of the Freemasons etc. They would usually just comment on what I was doing or thinking, only sometimes they would get really critical and nasty.

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@Jace

I don’t think doctors give out the sz label lightly, but I understand your doubts.

@MissJennyJen

I have the same diagnosis as you. It sounds like you have found that fully accepting it is really useful. I am also doing well at the moment. They last time I was ragingly psychotic was nearly 3 years ago.

I also struggle to believe sometimes that I have sz. And that I’m faking it. On my meds I’m doing very well so I forget I have sz at times - until Alien pays me a surprise visit.

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I’m the same way. I’ve recently been missing my shot appointments bc I don’t believe I need the meds. Even though I hear voices and have depression. They think I have delusions.

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