@Jonathan2 irregular heart beat.
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I also sometimes struggle with insomnia.
But I slept last night and it’s 10 am here now.
My cleaning lady will be here in 2 hours.
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It would appear so! I’m in WV. Do i remember you are in OK? I could be making that up. I can’t help it I’m sleep deprived! 
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Oh you’re in the future compared to me! I’m glad you were able to get some sleep.
I’d really love to find a good cleaning person here. I haven’t looked into it yet, but it sure would help.
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She’s great. My cleaning lady is from Ethiopia and I consider her a friend. I went to a charity event of her last week.
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@TheIdlerWheel yes !! pauls valley, oklahoma…been here most of my life…except when I went on an online dating spree that took me to Florida and Arizona !! long over now…years ago…it was a thrill.
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That’s great. It’s very important to have a mutually trusting relationship with someone in your home like that.
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@jukebox oh good, I’m not totally gone. Whew!
And wow, what a long, strange trip that must’ve been! I bet it was a great experience!
I’ve never been to Oklahoma. I am from Oakland, CA but I didn’t spend much time in the West.
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yes, I was semi delusional on abilify and hypersexual…unfortunately, the bipolar woman I dated in florida was abusive and I moved on to another woman whom I married in Arizona, still semi delusional on abilify ( her too, she was sz), we made huge financial bad decisions and it ruined our marriage…I am now married to my second wife and doing well.
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Gosh, @jukebox you had me gasping at every sentence! I had no idea but im so glad you’re in a healthy happy relationship now.
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oh thank you…it was a hairy experience, I still remember crying all the way to Arizona in my car as I felt bad for leaving my bipolar gf but she was just no good for me. she wanted to die in a murder/ suicide with me, I drew the line there once I found that out.
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You poor dear… that’s so terrible. I’ve been in one or two abusive relationships and understand how awful it is. You definitely did the right thing. For yourself and for her, it wouldn’t have done her good for you to stay. I think some people can’t help but be toxic in relationships. It’s their illness. Not to excuse it, but you understand. I’m so glad you got out of there!
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She killed herself years later, and tried to reach me out of the blue on here on the forum and we emailed a couple months before she did it…she wanted me to come back…I was already engaged to my current wife and I never wanted to be with her again, (which I didn’t tell her), it’s sad.
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Geez man. I’m so sorry. That’s devastating. But I hope you remember you can’t blame yourself for other peoples’ choices. I just hate that.
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I blamed myself for a while, but nothing I said , begging, pleading…crying…she did it anyways…she was unmedicated, which I tried to desperately try to convince her she needed…
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I can’t sleep either:
I’m so tired, I haven’t slept a wink
[I’m so tired, my mind is on the blink
I wonder, should I get up
And fix myself a drink?
No, no, no
You’d say I’m putting you on
But it’s no joke, it’s doing me harm
You know I can’t sleep, I can’t stop my brain
You know it’s three weeks, I’m going insane
You know I’d give you everything I’ve got
For a little peace of mind
I’m so tired, I’m feeling so upset
Although I’m so tired, I’ll have another cigarette
And curse Sir Walter Raleigh
He was such a stupid git
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Visteral and trazadone is my magic cocktail for sleep i took that when i was withdrawing from abilify in the hospital miserable experience but it helped
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Trazodone gives me an irregular heartbeat and visteril does nothing for me. But thanks for the tips!
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