i’m doing ok, i can do most things accept working and i hate shopping, i do a little volunteering but not much, i can drive a bit, i live almost entirely independently and have little help apart from a friend from time to time, i am trying to ask my friend if i can have a bit more ‘me’ time as i feel a bit crowded out at the moment, hoping to meet a gf and get a part time job.
but my dad use to say to me ‘could do better on the report card’ lol and its true.
Ok you all know I’m not sz but I seriously don’t consider myself high functional:
Its almost like I don’t take meds lol
What you describe sounds very similar to the negative symptoms of schizophrenia.
Never as functional as I’d like to be. Needed to be reminded to shower by my calendar this morning. 
I think i have a psychotic depression. If there’s something like psychotic depression.
You should talk to your psychiatrist about it. It’s not usual for bpd to have depression. Don’t you have bipolar? I thought you did
I don’t even know Minnie. I’m just a mess. My head is a mess. I can’t do a single thing right. Maybe I was bipolar and it changed. I don’t know. I don’t wanna derail the thread.
Oh please I started this thread…im not exactly a stickler for staying on topic…its a self analysis thread anyway…I set no rules to define functionality…if you want to talk about the global impact of mickey mouse and friends it would be OK…
I think the concept of “personal genius” is a true one… Everyone has a gift to give in a brilliant way…
Did you know one of the biggest cattle businesses is run by an autistic woman?
@Sarad I suggest you talk to a doc and don’t worry… I often think of the ways I will kick the bucket because of my ill health and fears suck …
Hugs. And don’t worry hon just bring it up to your doc
@HuckFinn how do you feel about those people who have an accident and suddenly pick up sevante style gifts of usually music art or math that they previously either sucked at or had no interest in…
I had a math teacher who had a stroke I think…he lost his gift with numbers but the next year he was my art teacher…a subject he said his skill level before his incident was at the level of small children…but after he was very good and even made extra money selling his work…
I’ve heard similar stories. I personally believe as humans we are designed to adapt in these wondrous ways. @flameoftherhine
Cool stuff
I have a routine each day that gets me to work, through the workday and home. Sometimes I can even run errands, and sometimes I can’t. About once per month or so I can’t go to work… I think I’m at a basic level of functioning. The other day I offended someone at work and it took me down a few notches because it was a glaring example of my inability to get get out of my own head and to see how I offended. I apologized to the person in the way that people do, but I really don’t understand how I was offensive and that worries me.
So I’m functioning at moderate, until I’m not.
So that brings kinda ties in with your personal genious theory…albeit an accident was the catylyst for them finding…or gaining their gift…I don’t understand how they are obtaining the gift…but I agree sometimes its just hard to see how bright your own gifts are…
My brother lies about stuff to get preachy people off his back lol… He admits it to me but he’ll go along with my moms spiritual talk to just keep her off his back and to appear conscientious lol… He’s intelligent and I don’t care… Its funny to me because I know some people just don’t get him so he lies about his views…
Not saying you’re like him… I was just reminded a little
It seems to me We are basically computers that operate in unique ways.
Its true too tho… There are aspects of our minds developing in our evolution too… Right? We only use about 10% of outr brain and the rest is higher self perhaps connected to our surroundings in ways we don’t even know…
Low frequencies can travel further and stronger thru walls so maybe our lower freq brain waves are telekinetic…
Just a theory of mine… Scientists disagree
A similar thing happened to me. I used to be a shy, awkward math nut, and everyone thought I was going to be some world-famous doctor or something. Then I got brain damage and I couldn’t even add or subtract, but suddenly I was a social butterfly with a gift for sales. i can’t understand how that works, but I’m not complaining.
That is untrue. We only use 10%of our brain at the same time, but we use all parts. Just not all at once.
Ah. Fair enough. Maybe youre right… I go off on tangents at times I’ll admit…
Theories change apparently
I’ve had the diagnosis “major depression with psychotic features” before. That might be how you would be diagnosed if you were hospitalized, if they haven’t changed that diagnosis.