I feel different. I feel numb to my surroundings. I feel my personality has taken a huge blow. Depression. Sexual side effects. An inability to start over and make a new life for myself.
I have been on Antipsychotics for a while now.
I have been wondering what it would be like to get off of the Risperdal completely.
I would probably end up super skinny but just maybe Manic and psychotic, this is the only problem.
My psychiatrist does not want to lower my dose even a little bit.
I can only dream about living a med free life at this point.
Can you handle being manic? Remember you said you were delusional for years at one point, can you handle that?
Well I feel like a completely different person. My personality has changed, I became more distant, and more cranky. My academic and professional performances have been affected as well. My weight, my libido, even my voice has changed.
I don’t do anything except tolerate the side effects of the medication, be nice to people, and take care of myself (stop bad habits like smoking, take care of health and hygiene, and try to do good whenever possible).
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Yeah - Probably not
That’s what I feel like, it’s a full time job.
I’m one of those cases that the first medication I tried was perfect for me. I’m delusions free and getting better with time, when I joined this site two months ago I was still paranoid and a bit delusional, now not anymore. I have to have a lot of patience, but it’s worth it. I don’t have any side effects, I’m losing the weight I gained. I’m lucky, thank all the gods.
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The first AP I got was perfect for me too. I tried a few others but now I’m back on the first one and the second one I got. They are both quite sedative (olanzapine, quetiapine) but I need that. When not on meds or drugs I can never calm down. I really love taking my meds since they relax me. And I have few side-effects. But I don’t want to take more than I need.
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I’m on Geodon and Seroquel and I’m doing pretty good. I’ve been without symptoms for over ten years. I am so much more comfortable on these drugs than I was on Haldol. Geodon and Seroquel weaken me physically, but I’m comfortable on them.
I’m not the same person I was before I got ill. I’m much calmer, introvert, lack of joy and lust. I have no inspiration to do art. I can hardly remember myself without meds. I used to be social and outgoing. I had “it”. People were gathering around me and listened to what I had to say. Made me a team leader at work.
Meds made me dull.
Or maybe it’s not meds doing it. It could be sz doing it. Who knows.
I feel the side effects on the body by weakening it to such a great magnitude definitely lowers my state of consciousness and the intensity of life.
I have also olanzapinea and quetiapine /ketipinor), these work well, I would not know how to sleep without these meds, I am psz and I have still some severe paranoid episodes, mostly without any reason, I do not really have a physical social life but I post here quite a lot. So I use the sz social media quite a lot. I do have side effects such as restless legs syndrome.
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Oww I hated having restless legs syndrome… Sorry you have that side-effect.
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I do have another med for RLS, pramipexole that I need to take every evening, otherwise it would be pain to go to the bed and try to start sleeping.
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I cope with pretty much everything one day at a time, including my meds. 
Pixel.
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