All that “high functioning” means in the area of this problem is they went easy on you.
I’ve seen what they can do. Really wouldn’t consider being high functioning as anything other than them not dragging you down farther than they could have.
You see this alot in our world. People can’t own much of anything at all. No one chose anything really, an extermely small portion in all of our lives is actually a choice. Good or bad, we really can’t own ■■■■ at all, are we seriously wandering the earth proclaiming that we rule nature?
Some just get lucky and thats all it ever was. Should be viewed as a gift every single time, just a gift that you were given and others didn’t get.
It’s all just gifts that people were handed when it comes to any of this stuff. Good house, health, most of it’s just genetics. We really are proclaiming every day that we rule nature, strange right, delusional even to say you made yourself basically in the way you wanted to be made, it’s insanity at it’s finest.
No choice in the least and thats what we think we all have. Im losing it.
Hey, I agree with you for once. I know that I am VERY lucky. A lot of what I’ve accomplished is getting lucky and being in the right place at the right time. I’m lucky meds work for me. I’m lucky I live in an area with many resources. I’m lucky that I’m haven’t killed myself like 5 of my friends have. I’m lucky to have a family who has supported me for 35 years. I’m lucky that I kicked a nasty crack habit. I’m lucky and grateful. To my credit I’ve made the most out of golden opportunities I’ve been given. I’m lucky when I was addicted that I wandered downstairs in the group home I was in and found a nice AA meeting every Tuesday night. And here’s hoping for continued luck.
Did a photo shoot this afternoon. Did a second photo shoot this evening, plus video. Survived being around a thousand people in a cramped space. Was on the receiving end of lots of kind words regarding photography I’ve done for the school and other volunteer work. It was a good evening even if I am a bit fried right now.
It’s not luck. It’s the result of a decision over 20 years ago to slay this dragon, or at least corner the bugger. Every day in every way I’m winning another piece of that battle. It started with a decision to focus on the positive.
If I can do it anyone can do it. I’m not special and I’m sure as hell not lucky.
I notice in my own recovery that I may take one step forward and two steps back, and that I may seem to make progress, but only to go backward the next phase, and it can take a long time to feel that you have achieved anything. Don’t be too hard on yourself though, cuz those who put an unrealistic perfectionism on themselves are also diseased.
Your own functioning doesn’t matter so much once you had paranoid schizo start. You can be set upon by so many screwed up people in your community, you may not be left alone to work again…Gang stalking, cause stalking & thought broadcasting (google this) cause a lot of harassment in workplace, as well as existing workplace scams that kept abusers in place in some jobs & just keep hiring the low-paid female help to screw them over and over, never ever paying unemployment benefits…If you have been looking for work long enough, you will see a lot of skilled/good jobs that rehire every 6-9 months and then you find out they screw people up and fire them. It isn’t seasonal work for summer either, it’s a scam environment…Some cities have a lot of this…Some of the churches have been cranking out so many crazy hate mongers, they think they are supposed to mess up family even who is getting disability check (even family) instead of going into church to pray it away…There is so much more to FUNCTIONING in cities once you have dealt with the voices for a while, it is ALL about your resilience & maybe some connections to an employer who doesn’t allow workplace bullying or worse…
Remember, these terms to google are considered delusional by mental care. The psych care refuses to discuss these and will not give you help with any social problems, even if it affects your ability to work. This is mental care policy that cannnot be changed. You cannot ever get angry with mental care or you will be locked up in mental hospital at your own expense for as long as dr can justify…
One time I was talking to my son in the car who doesn’t talk, and I thought, “my daughter is going to say, Mom, he can’t talk,” and about a 1 minute lag, then she said, “Mom, he can’t talk.”
Could be ‘thought insertion’ too. Your internal voice can be hijacked so you hear a word or phrase repeated that is unrelated to current environment, train of thought or activities. This happens a lot with young kids or old folks, makes them look like they are possessed because they are talking about something they shouldn’t know. It isn’t demonic. It is only a bad joke. It’s better to ignore it as they don’t understand what is happening and really cannot help it. This can explain talking in tongue too as it can literally come out of someone spasticly kind of like a nervous muscle tick, even yelled…Mental care calls it delusional so they won’t discuss it…Ignore this if it happens to you…
Most of the time, thought broadcasting involves doing someone who hears the voices part-time and deals with it by following orders from the voices. This involves going to specific location & intercept a specific stranger to verbally harass the person about something private, like talking your mental voice like a parrot or tell you where you have just been…Some people will try to pick up someone with this attempt to let you know they hear voices too but results are REALLY mixed…Some people just get good setups and others get all bad ones, so judge for yourself…You can try to talk to these a little and see, but some are so flipping crazy lost it is really bad idea to really do much more than try to communicate. Some who pull this at work will try to tell you something important so is important to hear these out…Some churches and groups of teens make this a practice…Churches are cause stalkers and groups of teens are gang stalkers. The gang stalkers can be VERY threatening and you are probably okay if you do not even speak up. This can be sign you have chosen wrong neighborhood for housing & it may not remain okay much longer. Some cities have A LOT of this aggressive stuff while other places do not have more than a few people who will yell something private about you rudely in the grocery store like old guy yelling ‘YOU NEED TO SNEEZE’ from across the store…
ok, thanks, but I’m so thought quiet from voices. I want to ask you something, my neighbor who has a driveway back to back with me, when I go to leave my house, he is leaving at the same time. It was happening every day until I blogged about it. Now, rarely. Was he trying to gang stalk me?
I don’t like to categorize schizophrenia or any other mental illness into high - moderate - or low functioning levels.
I think that all we can really do is try our best, take our meds, go to therapy and live our lives as clean as possible.
Some days I am high functioning to a point, other days I am lower - it all fluctuates.
Living a stress free lifestyle helps me out tremendously - add some stress to the mix and I become low functioning instantly.
Lets face it - the vast majority of the people on this site are “high functioning” no doubt about this - just at different degrees.
True low functioning schizophrenics have a difficult time using a computer and have a difficult time communicating to others.
No such thing. You’re suffering from delusional thinking. The sooner you reject this as false and destructive thinking, the sooner you’ll be living a quality life. Highly recommend doing CBT and getting therapy.
That’s how I feel. Those who have made it here are already on the path to recovery. And if you’ve made it this far, why not commit to going the distance? Those here who wear the low functioning label only do so by choice.
I don’t think any of us can make an assumption of what things are like for others. There’s so much invidual difference between people. For example, two people can be raped. One may develop severe PTSD and struggle with relationships for the rest of their life. One may just store it in their head as a bad memory and move on.
But can you argue that one person’s experience was more severe and unpleasant than the other’s? Not really. Similarly with mental illness, individual differences determine how one responds. Is it possible that every high functioning sz just has a milder form of the illness? Well I suppose it is. But I’m sure if you asked those people they wouldn’t say they felt their illness was mild. In my opinion it’s more likely individual difference comes into play, as well as outside factors like support systems, medicine adherence, treatment availability, etc.
Only a few on here are high functioning I think…I still have residual paranoia from time to time, and I smoke weed. so I wouldn’t say I am high functioning. now pixel…there is a perfect example of high functioning. !
Having been very low-functioning for a time (until I was finally stabilized), but now pretty high-functioning most of the time, I’m forced to disagree with the notion that “every high functioning sz just has a milder form of the illness.” I agree that that is likely in some, but not all cases, of course.
We have episodes, which would suggest time in between where the illness is not as prevalent may result in higher functioning for a time. I have been fooled by this. I thought I was doing so well I could cut my meds down, but that did not end well. I hate to imagine what would have happened if I wasn’t taking anything at all.
Higher functioning is possible with medication. Imagine just a few decades ago, before antipsychotics. We would all be in the same boat with little or no hope of recovery. I might not like meds, but I now understand that without them, I am a non person and may as well be dead.