Excessive guilt was causing my delusions where I thought I was being spied on and people were out to get me. I addressed the guilt/shame and the paranoid/persecutory delusions rarely bother me these days. I believed that I was a bad person and was being punished somehow because of past mistakes.
I think fear was driving mine.
I know I fear being alone. I know I fear having no one on my side in life…
My worst delusions were of my younger siblings getting kidnaped or killed.
I spent so much of my life fighting off kidnappers that were never there. My Doc and I went rounds on this one.
I’m better now… but it’s always under the surface.
most fear is irrational till it comes true
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