It could be a number of things. Im getting full bloodwork done to see why I have mood swings, depressive and tired days and then testy and restless days. Maybe you need some sun or a mulitvitamin. You said you exercise every day, which is great, but maybe you need some vitamin D and B vitamins, hell it could be anything or just the illness.
I wish you luck on your date, when I first started dating again I had anxiety about it, after dating a lot of people I got over it. Only a couple of people were successful in my dates so far, I met a lot of losers and also people who just werent compatible, they liked to get drunk or were not right in the head themselves or were frankly losers, or in some cases other tops which was just awkward.
But keep at it and you might at least find someone to have sex with, which is better than nothing, sex is a basic need so I dont turn down the whole sex buddy thing, Ive had a couple of those types of relationships. They inevitably got a little emotional but I did well to cut that part out- sex buddies are supposed to be friends, not lovers, but sometimes its hard to draw the line when youre both done having sex and then end up talking and opening up to each other and talking to eachother during the day.
they say that sex breeds love. I dunno, I considered my partners good friends but I didnt love them and had no problem calling it game over after a while.
I remember out private message chat, just be yourself and dont think that dating is everything, you need to be strong first. I made that mistake before, thinking that being successful in dating and sex would make me feel stronger, no it doesnt, strength comes from within.
Avoid being clingy or clingy people too. Reek of confidence and good things will happen. It takes practice, dont expect to be Romeo if you havent dated much yet.
I understand feeling emotionally numb- I have been there. I think it’s the illness. Talk to your docs about it, that is beyond fellow schizer’s realm of support.