I am having sudden change in my mood and anger management. Maybe my 20 mg dose in the morning is not enough.
Around the 2:00 pm and after I am surviving on L Theanine really until I take my evening dosage.
I feel so angry and bitter and them empty and depressed. 
I am so tired of this crap!!!
I wish I was just normal… with no health complications… I am only 28 and have been ill since 22. I suffered so much. I really hope I don’t get cancer or some horrible disease after this.
I don’t have mood swings very often. Sometimes I do but rarely. Haven’t really had them since I’ve been on Abilify. I feel flat sometimes. Like yesterday my sister kept asking me if I was bored which I wasn’t but I must have looked bored.
I’m 29 now and I too wish I was normal. Don’t worry Arlene. We may be a little off but we’re not all that bad. Things could be far worse. We could be living on the streets yelling at passerbys or in an asylum like in the 30’s and 40’s. Now with the right medication we can live almost normal lives. It’s a shame we got I’ll but don’t let it bring you down. I try not to. It’s easy to but we shouldn’t.
As for cancer… good thing you stopped smoking. I worry about stuff like that too. I think the best thing we can do about it is to eat a nutritional and balanced diet and exercise. It’s easy to say at least. 
I hate to always default to this,
But are you about to start your cycle?
That crap matters and definitely messes with the way you feel.
How long have you been feeling this extra bit of anger and depression?
Haha I was wondering the same goldenrex but I didn’t want to go there.
I feel you, I have mood swings too. Today I’m upset at myself for not doing much, but occasionally I need a day where I just relax at home and chill.
I’m only taking 1mg of risperidone. I hope it’s enough, I’d like to be on the lowest dose possible for health reasons such as heart. Ap’s can cause problems by the time I’m only 40. Iv been taking them since I got sick at 22, 4 years ago
No I am not on my cycle. I am not even ovulating.
I have anxiety. This anxiety is causing the bitter racing thoughts and resentment. I dwell in the past and can not enjoy my life. It is almost like my mind is wired in a weird way which causes me to feel horrible. I want to start a family I can not. I hate certain people who are not even around me, I hate their memory. I wanna have sex but it is just does not feel good, I am not even attracted to my partner and I think he is asexual. Feels like I am stuck in a weird life which does not seem mine but this is all there is. Constant mood swings, resentment and incapable to do much.
I am also convinced this is what life is, because there is not much I look forward to. I guess this dose of medication is not enough. I just don’t get how others are so happy, makes me think there is something very weird with me?! People around me are happy with much less.
I also met some guy I really liked, I knew from the start he is an ■■■■■■■ and it kept being proven over and over and over and over and over and over again. What a dumb jerk. I am sad that I am attracted to him, proves even more why I am ill.
I really understand your feelings. I have been sick between 23 years old and 36 years old. I have lost all those years. While I was sick, I was mad because I was wasting precious years of my youth.
But don’t give up and stay positive. I’m pretty much sure that one day you will feel better and the worst years will be behind you. I would be very surprised that you would have to wait as long as me because my problem was that I was not diagnosed.
Maybe you can get this anxiety under control with the medication,
But I think you should try to journal and take an inventory of your life.
When you better understand yourself, you can make dramatic improvements.
Making a detailed journal really helped me in the past and continues to help now.
My mood swings have been caused by thyroid problems, pms, and dieting. Dieting affects my meds for some reason and gives me anxiety and mood swings. If you’re having chemically induced moods there probably is a valid explanation!
I hear you. I feel the same, and often wonder what’s wrong with me that other people are able to function normally so easily AND be happy. I also know for me, no magic pill or medication is ever going to give me a normal, happy life. I’m faking it till I make it. The less wrapped up I am in my own thoughts, the happier I feel. As much as I dread socializing sometimes (ok, often) I need that human interaction to stop me from getting down on myself. But I am jealous of the people who were lucky enough to figure it out on their own, medication free. Who go running in the morning. Who have partners, families, pets. Are extroverted. I feel you. All we can do is try.
this is completely my label, but I am still so unhappy. 
and unstable and miserable
AMEN! this has been my only solution. I only try to distract myself. I can not have a moment of peace without sinking into a miserable state
@mermaid1 I was having terrible anxiety the past couple of days, but I managed to keep my head on straight because I remember you telling me “distractions!” And for the most part it worked for me.
So I appreciate that.
I get bad mood swings at times too. The best advice I can offer is to know that they / all this, will pass.
I hope you feel better soon, take care.
Thank you @Montezuma I should hear my own advice too. Too difficult sometimes.
hi,
i feel you…
sometimes imget these mood swings withing ‘seconds’ of each other…
usually happy to elation and then sad to tears…
sometimes both at the same time…
its weird…