Thanks @TheCanuk.
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My mom said i used to see ghosts when i was 2, but i believe in ghosts so idk if thats a symptom or not. I dont remember it. I remember being very afraid of the supernatural from a very early age though. Ive always picked at my skin really badly. When i was about 7 i had an episode where i felt i had to continuously swallow or my saliva would drown me. At 11 i was convinced my mom was replaced by a robot, though i hid this from everyone. I became severely depressed around age 12 after my group of friends all randomly decided i was no longer cut out to be their friend (they said i was too fat), maybe they thought i never was who knows. Around this time i felt a huge rejection from my mom too, and continue to feel this.
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I always struggled with anxiety. Maybe depression I am not aware of. I always had people around me who made me feel stupid. Few friends. One guy in primary school always made sure to create situations in a way that ended me looking stupid. This seems to have continued as I got old. Mom always criticized me. Still does. Dad is really unpredictable. He has decreased arguing with me like he is looking for physical fight.
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Even though I struggled, my childhood wasnāt all that bad @LilyoftheValley
Grew up in a loving family
Thanks
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yes, since about the age of 10.
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I was always destined for sz
I had mild paranoia and body dysmorphia since I was 7 or 8 years old.
All it took was depression & isolation to trigger psychosis.
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looking back there were some signs.
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Yes I think I was always mentally ill. Also realizing I always had audio hallucinations and what I thought were gifts were not.
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I was a pretty normal kid until the third grade when I was bullied by neighborhood boys. This really messed me up for life. I also had a concussion and fractured skull from what these boys said I fell off my bike. I still to this day canāt remember what happened.
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I started getting mentally ill at 13 when I got panic attacks which lasted for years and my sza was diagnosed at 18 years old . Iām 38 now.
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I think I was always mentally ill.
The way I was treated by my parents sealed the deal.
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Anxiety and paranoia since 13. Diagnosed at 21 or 22. Thatās when I started hallucinating.
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I had some symptoms and signs,
but I was not mentally ill back then
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I feel like my trauma made me mentally ill. Without the trauma, I would probably be okay.
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I think ive always had depression and anxiety. I never had interest in things my family loved to do. I always opted to stay home. My depression definitely got worse as i got older. In college i took long walks by myself and drank a lot. Also sat in my room with my door shut in my apartment a lot. Kinda cut myself kff from my roommates.
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sadly i know i was always mentally ill ā¦ since birthā¦
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I was 35, so was my mother. I think itās because I had to work with even more abusive people than my mother, who didnāt intend to be, but didnāt get assistance from relative or my father.
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My SzA started when I was 12. At 12, I was diagnosed with depression. But I was also hallucinating and having mania. I didnāt know it at the time, though.
TW: mention of sexual abuse
At 15, I was raped by a stranger, on a cruise ship. Then I started having crippling anxiety. Then at age 16, I was raped by my boyfriend. Then at 18, I was raped by a medical professional. Thatās when my brain truly broke. I was hallucinating like crazy, I was delusional AFā¦ But I still didnāt know it.
And then another person raped me when I was passed out, from alcohol, at age 20. After so much sexual abuse, I was living in some twisted reality, in my head. I had really bad PTSD, but I didnāt recognize it until like age 23.
I met my husband at age 21. I had a lot of delusions, some involving him. We got into a lot of arguments, due to my irrational thoughts. But then I got help at age 24.
Now, I just turned 30, and Iām doing so much better. I still have breakthrough symptoms, but Iām pretty stable and I have good insight.
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Iāve always had focus problems and was always called weird, I also had one heck of a imagination
Add on: Iāve always been scared of everything either scared or clueless
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I was born as a mental case. It didnāt help that my mother sent me away to live with the man she was separated from (my father) who did a good job bringing me up despite his cold and attached way of being. I had a wonderful stepmother, but i was always a weirdo (most schizotypals are born weirdos).
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