I know what I really want.
I want to study Judaism, which is the most important commandment in Judaism,
and observe all the commandments/observe Jewish religious law.
I just don’t like the natural order and how we have a society made based on human reason.
But I guess people like Hitler come along and then the laws are there for people like them.
I don’t like humans and how we are conditioned in different ways. I don’t lik this world and how we have to eat to survive and kill to survive. I don’t like that we have sharp teeth.
Sounds stupid. I think this creation is a horrible failure.