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Crying my little eyeballs out

I went on facebook to check on my baby’s daddies and see if they’d messaged me.

I was in the search bar looking them up in my contacts when their names came up on another user’s page.

It was them.

It was a kind of “spread the word” adoption page.

I scrolled all through it.

Total emotional rollercoaster.

They updated the site quite frequently,

Chronicling their heartbreak when other adoption plans had fallen through,

Taking parenting classes to prepare for fatherhood,

Even a video they made for expecting women considering adoption.

I’d never seen it.

The last post was a picture of our son looking like he’d just escaped the womb.

I’m still crying.

How could I have missed this?

It was sooo sweet,

But I swear it was physically painful to see.

I feel all the hurt of the adoption and the wound feels so fresh.

I hate days like this.

This is why I need a ■■■■■■■ forum.

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((Hugs)) @dinoatzoo

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Hugs to you friend.

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Hugs))) :green_heart:
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Hugs. I’m sorry.

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(hugs) :green_heart::purple_heart:

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I’m sorry that you are having to go through these painful emotions @dinoatzoo . :hugs:

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Hugs

Hope you feel better soon. Glad to hear you need the forum for support.

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Just know that the sun will always rise. Tomorrow is a new day with new opportunities. Try and keep your head up but also don’t be afraid of emotion.

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You gave those guys the best gift anybody has ever given them. You’re such a good person for that, your karma is off the charts.

I’m sure you’ll have a healthy relationship with the kid in the future even if it’s not in a parental capacity. I really respect the hell out of you, you know!

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I’m sorry it feels so hard and painful. You did a lovely thing for that couple. Gave them a beautiful gift, plus you get to share in your son’s life. You are a great person. I hope you don’t dwell on the pain, because you deserve happiness from this

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I’m sorry to hear that you had to witness that… hugs

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