I was right now thinking I am just waiting someone to approve my plans and actions like I need a validation.
Without knowing. If I had a character of my own, I could have done anything and everything I could have come accross.
I feel like I am a slave or a follower but not free.
Even though I am free physically but not mentally.
Present is all I have of my own! Even time will slowdown if I value my present 
time !
Awe life is so beautiful 
even when I do nothing with it.
" The purpose of life is so simple, it’s to find your meaning in it " ~Jerry, from the movie Soul.
What’s my meaning ? If you ask.
Experience everything ! which is impossible !
I still feel we all are one, in portions of life 
Where we all sing in the universal frequency.
I had mentioned this about 2 years back.
Now when a mystic says it all are 
puzzled.
I am gonna stop taking approvals of my thoughts.
“Free will” with present time allotted, I will experience life.
I love this life !
It’s filled with surprise.
I just learnt my sz is caused by self by myself, no external factors.
With meds help I will fix myself .
My mind is like troubled waters needs to settle down.
And then open the sail 
. So I can travel 
far reaches of my mind capacity.
I can write 
on and on , for approval.
Hey! Life is one ! I want to Experience it 
‘Do you wait’ for approvals. ?