I am refraining ordering much from outside because other than the exchange rate, i also have to pay custom duty fees and they are a lot 
We are going to NY first week of september though not sure if i will do any shopping yet
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That makes sense. Hope you have fun in NY either way!
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Trying to watch Game of Thrones with the husband tonight… was like trying to sit on a live wire. All jittery, skin crawling, anxiety inducing. I love the show but sitting and watching anything on TV is getting harder and harder.
This week I moved, went through med withdrawal that consisted of extreme anxiety & gagging and vomiting while on the road to where I was moving to, took medication again and had to deal with road trip and sedation, got home, my pet died almost immediately, I went to the dentist to find out my summer of energy drinks and not brushing my teeth gave me over 5000$ worth of cavities and that I’ll need 2 maybe even 3 root canals, I got in a car accident and without thinking said it was my fault at the scene (when it technically was not) so we’ll probably have to pay for everything , and to top things off my shower curtain rod fell on me while I was showering.
So yeah this is has been literally the worst week for me. I can’t even begin to process how bad this week has been.
Sorry Anna! At least things should start looking up from here.
Please take care, Anna! When do you start your new job?
Technically not for 3 weeks, but I start training on Tuesday. I need 40 hours of training before I can start working. At least the training is paid.
I have a whole online thing for it I need to do too, and a test to take for it. I’m pretty overwhelmed, I just wanted a casual job I could do with my classes for money.
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Anna ur doing good…
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I’m somehow still functioning very well despite being in a depressive episode (usually my functioning goes to crap during them) so I guess the medication isn’t doing nothing. It’s certainly not stabilizing my mood though. I’m going to talk to the pdoc next week about trying a different AD…
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I made a hand bag for Anders once.
I think I made it with out help even.
It had a smiling sun sewn on it.
It was to be worn over or across his shoulder.
I went for a half hour walk today.
I saw a gorgeous aboriginal boy with such beautiful big eyes.
The boys I saw smiled at me and even said hello which was so nice.
Appreciate that.
I reckon.
A man I saw on my walk talked a bit to me.
He started talking about a state in the US that he thought was greedy with water.
I did not understand what he was talking about as I do not watch the news and keep up with these thi fa.
I did not comment I don’t think just walked on mainly.not to be rude …
But I’m not good at talking n socialising n it izzz as it is yo.
Anders had/has such beautiful amazing eyes.
They are big and brown and kind.
He has warm loving kind eyes.
I am sorry we lost touch as he was my best friend and truly beautiful.
Maybe he had his bad moments but I like to think he was is loyal etc to me.
Despite paranoia I could still be naive.
I saw kris jones and his daughter on YouTube singing.
God they are gorgeouzzz!
Her smiling is really delightful and they are both a delight to watch and lovely singing too.
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Hi z …sup …are u good at knitting …!!!
Howdy there yo!
I am not good at knitting.
I only know the one basic stitch back n forth.
It took me ages to learn that one stitch and I felt so retarded and cried.
I am so proud that I can do it though.
I am making a blanket.
Do you know how to knit?
Do you do any hand work/craft?
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Will u teach me zilija …??? I am not good at knitting. .??
I’m funny looking. 
Nah, I’m a realist, but it’s okay, that way I’m not surprised.
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Let’s just go full green smoothie diet… I’m thinking about it.
WHO’S WITH ME??? FULL GREEN SMOOTHIE DIET!!!
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They have some really good tutorials on you tube.
What would you like to knit?
I think it can be very therapeutic.
Crewchetting helped me immensely as well.
Last time I was feeling psychotic and did not feel that I was coping I just took medication and sat down and crewchetted and sleep through it.
Even in hospital I was crewchetting.
They locked it in my locker and I had to ask staff for it but they let me crewchette.
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Went to a concert yesterday,
It was really good, revitalized my soul.
@Rhubot Sorry I forgot to tell you. You said you had a memory from childhood where you acted a bit racist unintentionally and that it bothers you a lot.
Some things from my childhood bother me a lot too. But if I think of what others have done or said to me, I do not have as bad as reaction as I think they would have for me. I think like my good friend told me once that I magnify everything in my mind. Things are so much simpler than we think. It is like a motto for me.
I have a few ugly memories too, and see days they bother me a lot. so I am almost certain that the person involved does not think of it the way we imagine, maybe has even forgotten.
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I’m losing hope for my life. That it will ever get better.
it is going to be hard to enjoy my bday today the voices are relentless i am very anxious about going to this restaurant later i told my family dont tell the waiter or waitress that its my birthday because if they start singing i might die
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