Your worst delusion

Worst one was when I believed people could hear and see everything I was thinking. I thought people could see my thoughts on the TV.

I have that happen to me to this day to some extent.

Burning in hell, went so deep in my mind I was burning inside a complete comatose state for I canā€™t remember exactly how long it was it, more then two months I think. It happened not to long after my first psychotic break.

Anyways I was completely in there not in control of anything burning unable to get out, it was like a weird functioning of how it worked, some type of law of the land.
Was not the best of experiences, probably even worse then Iā€™m wording it or remembering, but that experience is behind me and seen as imaginary.

Really donā€™t know if this can be considered a delusion or halluicenation.

Anyways thatā€™s in the past, time to screw myself fighting with todayā€™s delusions

I thought that life was to be fair.

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So I know I rambled and didnā€™t come up with the worst but I think I found the worst delusion I have had. When I was drugged by my employer/ FBI recruiter the drugs didnā€™t work so well and I still was able to recall the event so while I was barely coherent they drug me down the basement . They photographed me with a child they had drugged ,like child porn. After they. Were done they left me alone for the drugs to wear off. I struggled to the phone and dialed 911. They returned and took the phone away. So you can emagine how freaked out I was thinking these pictures were out of there. I had some loved ones concerned and had called the police to look into it. I finally quit my job because of what I thought had happened. Ended up getting arested for supposedly threatening my employer. Had no idea I was sick.

Quite often, mine vary from being convinced Iā€™m horribly sick or am going to get some sort of debilitating mental illness (though I often hide the fact I think these things to others, in fear of them laughing at me); or Iā€™ll think Iā€™m supposed to be some character I see on a show, and that I did perhaps at one point lived where they did but I just donā€™t rememberā€¦
Recently, it even went to the extent where a god-like voice told me I was a goddess and was carrying two children. I did find myself staring at my abdomen continually throughout the day, wondering if it was true and just kinda befuddled.
I usually donā€™t fight anyone if they say Iā€™m wrong, I prefer to play along instead of admitting what I think.

I thought my mother in law was trying to poison me. That was horrible when i lived with her because I had to watch her all the time. Nowadays it is easier as she doesnā€™t cook for me only but also my husband and i know shes not poisoning him. Only when she cooks for me alone and thats not often. Somehow I canā€™t seem to get this out of my head that sheā€™s just waiting for a moment to strikeā€¦ crazy I know but its so real!