A couple of years ago I had told an aunt of my bipolar sz diagnosis … probably was not a good idea… shes a known lover of gossip…
I was talking today about taking the anxiety meds and the recent happenings … i don’t feel like i need to hide it…
I said my partner knows about everything and she wondered if i ever met his parents which I have several times… i said he never judged even though i told i was previously dx sz and bipolar he didn’t judge me…
She said do you feel like killing people? When i said no she said then I dont have it… proves the point she is judgmental
the point is she used to repeatedly tell me im shy when I was a kid …
She always had somrhing to say…
I told her the reason I was so shy was because I didnt have much self esteem and felt I would be judged and people saying im shy didn’t help
I guess maybe i should not be too hard on her but I do feel hurt from things that have happened … i also want to learn to stop caring too much when people say hurtful things
If your aunt hurt your feelings repeatedly, I’m sorry for your pain.
A psychologist named Maslow wrote that Human Beings have self esteem needs. He said, however, until one’s love and belonging needs are met, one won’t be much focused on getting the self esteem one needs.
Its not all her fault she was not to knlw I was being bullied in school, which was making me avoid people when they came over… the reason was not i didn’t like them… the reason was I felt they dusnt like me… ,
I told my aunt that I’m on medication for my mental health and she said that I need to eat more fruit and veggies, walk more and and think happy thoughts. I kind of just skirted around her response.
I don’t tell anyone about my sz because most ppl are too dumb to know that sz is a medical disease. They think its demons, drugs, my diet, my fault, influenced by friends, etc Only bs. Only my parents and one of my close uncles know.