I had problems viewing the group website and thought it’s over. My web browser too old but now it’s working again! I’m so glad! I needed you guys so bad, it’s been really hard
Yesterday I saw psychologist for first session. It was just assessment to get my basic info and psych history. Next week we will finish it and he will assign me therapy types I need.
I feel awful. Rock bottom. Want to stay in bed all day. Never get up except for eating and reading and loo. I’m so demotivated I could die. I have nothing to live for. Worse, is hubby asked what is positive things about my illness I didn’t want meds to take away and I told him about the good spirit Sarah. Then he wanted me to let go my two spirits in my head and I said I can’t, they are my reality. How can he expect me to let them go? They’ve been there almost all my life! I don’t want them to go…
I told hubby I want to harm myself and he says he wants to check up on me more now when I’m alone. I have repeated urges to harm myself . Hubby very sad and I loathe sex too turn him down and I hate myself for that. I’m cursed