Yes, you’re right. I was under this delusion that he was ready to let me go after such a long break, and that me being sad will only make him more sad. This is a delusion. He is still in denial. His depression is like a hurricane about to hit and he might not last through it. I don’t understand enough. My friend at the movies warned me that it’s not all about being pretty. I have never been “used” for sex or anything because I’m a smart girl. Dating has always been a side thing. I don’t understand what it is like to need somebody, much less make your soul preoccupation in life women, or what it is like to be a guy trying to make it at the bottom of society. Being a nice guy is just not good enough. Did I mention the new guy I started seeing has a job delivering papers around campus? He probably understands Carlos better than me.
But… you can never have too much food…
Help, I’m getting depressed. Is this how you all feel?
I’m having a hard time understanding what you’re saying. But leading him on and keeping in contact with him isn’t helping the situation. You’re only making it harder for both of you.
If he contacts you, or you have reason to believe he’s not safe, you can call the non emergency line for the police and request a wellness check. A police officer will go check on him and make sure he’s okay. If he messages you and threatens to harm himself, call 911 and report him. That is not your fight to fight. He is not your responsibility to fix.
Well it matters because, to me, he just needs to develop better coping mechanisms like support network and look for a nice, smart girl who is willing to stay with him. I only understand “what needs to be done in order to get better.” I don’t understand what it is like to love somebody.
@anon62973308. It seems like this relationship between you and your ex is not healthy. What is stopping you from just ending the relationship once and for all? Is it that you’re not sure if you want to end the relationship? Or are you keeping your ex around just in case you don’t find a new bf?
None of that is your responsibility, though. You broke up with him and your not acting like it at all. It sounds like a very unhealthy relationship on both your parts. If you don’t love him, why are you leading him on? That’s cruel.
Should I just block him on Facebook then? I am worried he is suicidal. I was happily free of him till he called me today acting like it is suicide.
I would. If he does contact you acting like that or you hear he’s suicidal, do as I say above. I’ve called for wellness check on plenty of people in the past. They’re simple. And if he makes a direct threat, call 911. You are not responsible for him.
Coming off meds might have been a bad idea, starting to get paranoid. Don’t feel in control of my own mind. The meds didn’t put me in ctrl 100% but they kept me from really losing it. I know I have multiple mental illnesses, its not just sz. Psychosis set off a chain reaction. I probably have upwards of 3 diagnosable mental diseases and disorders. Aps may be my only option right now, even though I felt bad on them I was more stable. Or it might just be withdrawal from abruptyl stopping abilify, if so I will try and just wait it out.
Nightmares are bad tonight. My whole body hurts from how tense I am. I need a day to just sleep. This week has been too much.
I saw my sister at THE GYM yesterday. And my nephew, niece, and his girlfriend. Like you guys don’t understand how RARE this is. She is my long lost half sister from my Dad’s fist baby momma when he was 17. He is 59 now, going to be 60 this year.
My sister from my mom found her (i didn’t even know I had another sister or I just forgot) on facebook way back in like 2012.
For clairty’s sake, we will call my half sister Jessica and my full sister Amber because those are their real names.
But the reason this is so rare to see Jessica my half sister is because she doesn’t keep in contact. I am not sure why but we have lived in the same area for a long time. I remember that when I met her, she looked like she just got out of work at the nursing home. When she met my Dad after for the first time, she was all pretty looking with makeup and my Dad didn’t even notice. I didn’t notice until we left. That was the first and last day my Dad saw her I think.
Afterwards I just see her randomly around town. Sometimes she stops me, sometimes I stop her. It seems kind of like she wants to keep in touch but somehow no. Not sure what this means.
Tiggy is so cute!!!
Thank you for reminding me! My appointment is in a few hours. I made a note in my phone, too.
Seeing my sister for lunch. Should be nice.
Current mood
Internet save us!
Ooooo
So anyways, I’m way too worried about my ex. I wish I could talk to him just to make myself feel better.
I’ve been on the verge of crying all day for no reason. Wtf, why???
See the nurse in 1 hour. Come on, hour… and then therapy an hour after that.