i was just thinking when i read the voices in my head thread why some people develop certain paranoias or delusions.
i get voices from demons and angels and god.
but i also get paranoia and voices from government and the whole cia/nsa/fbi/trilateral commission/bilderbergs/etc thing.
my dad was bornn in the 40s and talks a lot about government and i think thats how i latched onto governmental paranoia. it started very innocent. my interests in my life took a total 180. i was into arts and music. i denounced any math or science. and then when i hit my second psychotic episode (Which seems to have never ended) i started reading philosophy and religious books and books and movies about government. and science. now i have a fascination with numbers and government conspiracies. and religion and such that i explained.
i dont care to call my “delusions” delusions because i truly dont believe they are so.
…if that makes any sense…