Why do people make me out to be the bad guy?

They think I’m being rude or lazy. Not cleaning or talking. I just got told off for no eye contact and limited convo. Maybe I dont want to talk to you. Maybe I have nothing to say. Maybe I actually stuck in this inferno of hell that prevents me from being just like you.


1 Like

Your not a bad guy. People just don’t understand :fox_face::fox_face::fox_face:


I’m trying but it’s so hard. If only they knew.

1 Like

I get called a bad guy when I am unmedicated; lazy, useless and junky when medicated. I become a bad guy when unmedicated bcz I become violent and angry very easily. I fight while raging. Meds reduce my sensibility to anger and rage.

My brothers say I am a bad mentally ill person not a good mentally ill person.

Without my medications, i would not be the rather relaxed person that i am right now. Like @Aziz, i have a tendency toward anger. I become extremely agitated and unable to settle. I become frustrated and from there the anger escalates.

You aren’t a bad guy @Windy. You’re doing the best you can, and for other that is just something they don’t understand.

1 Like

I feel angry and frustration because I feel like you can give people genuine schizophrenia on purpose and that that happened to me…

That nobody believes me.

I get called lazy and unmotivated a lot.

I feel like my life was destroyed and yet I cannot recover. It’s hell. The worst feeling is feeling like I’m going to always be schizophrenic because I’m stuck on the same timeline and the timeline bounces back for eternity. I don’t know that for sure, but I feel like that. I feel like two different people. It feels so real. Like I cannot remember my consciousness or soul before my illness. It’s terrifying and frightening.

How is it to have Asperger’s? I read that Bill Gates has Asperger’s. Asperger’s can have very high intelligence but SZ destroys intelligence.

I always was a dumb, slow kid that lacked social skills, but things came easy for me when I tried. The schizophrenia hit me a year after college in one day, one instant. Before that, I noticed I struggled more in college. The difficulty and learning curve was high. I realized I was with some of the brightest and smartest people and professors. I feel like I studied more than most but not in a smart way. I sometimes make the excuse I suffered from cognitive decline before then. I also noticed caffeine worsened my memory, but I kept drinking them when I was stressed and needed to study. I had a hard time finding motivation and the drinks helped me.

I was smarter as a young kid. No one encouraged me and I was definitely not a savant. I think my IQ was 130 or so before schizophrenia. Not sure what it is now, but it might be 110-120.

1 Like

IQ is not everything, I am sure SZ reduces intelligence by up to 80%, especially with negative and cognitive symptoms.

Sounds right. I have a hard time figuring things out like using the washer machine. We have an advanced one though. Things are harder now. I can still do mathematics though. I struggle with the very abstract parts. I cannot remember terms or definitions like I used to.

At community college, I could do most if not all the math in my head. I was fast too.

Yea I am also still good at studying but I can’t use my skills in real life so they’re useless. Its like having no intelligence at all.

1 Like

My brother is more successful than me, but I would say I’m a tad bit brighter. I don’t know. I believe intelligence is not crystallized but fluid meaning it can change over time.

I am glad you are more together now.

This topic was automatically closed 95 days after the last reply. New replies are no longer allowed.