Inspired by Jakes thread of “when did you start smoking”
I’m curious why you picked up the habit?
Accidental? Purposeful?
For me it was a little of both. I was stressed and knew cigarettes weren’t right. But at the same time the girl I was speaking to at the time was stressing me out a lot, and I lowkey thought maybe she’ll stop being annoying if I resort to a cigarette.
I had smoked before this situation, but not out of stress. Just for socials. I remember bright as day, what I felt, did and went through in my mind as I bought the packet.
I was never a smoker, never had a pack on me. I vape out of boredom since 2017. I don’t think I would vape if my life was busy. I read that 90-95% of schizophrenics use nicotine. Some say it fills time and helps cognitive and negative symptoms.
i started smoking in 2018, i smoked out of boredom at first, 6 cigarettes a day, then some months later i was up to a pack a day. and i’ve been smoking a pack a day for a couple years now. i’ve quit a couple times, but always went back to it. i prefer it to drinking, it relaxes me and gets me outside and doesn’t intoxicate me. usually i pick the habit back up when mom and dad go on vacation and leave me alone, instead of drinking. then a few months go by and i tell myself that i have to quit. i just recently quit for 2 months and everyday i say it’s going to be my last pack i buy when i go to the gas station.
also i noticed i got a bit of a stimulant effect from it, having more interesting thoughts to counter the disinterest in everything from meds.
So, I was bored and going to college… I was craving a dijarum black (not sure if I spelled that right) cause I had smoked one when I was like 15… went and bought a pack (only smoked one occasionally) then the guy I started dating smoked Newport’s, so did his brother, so I started smoking those. Only a few a day. Then I moved from there, and would spend all day on the back porch smoking cause I didn’t like my roommates lol… now I still smoke almost a pack day… but now I smoke Marlboro black…