@anon83141956 Because we’re two different persons and I feel like I’m alone in my illness, sometimes I feel alone because I don’t want to burden my partner with my crap. It’s really complicated cause we been together for a long time. There are more clingy moments than there are lonely moments in my relationship, but there are times of loneliness.
It feels good for a while, but it quickly gets old for me. I’m not particularly good at setting and maintaining boundaries, so when I have to say something it usually comes out being a bit confused
I once met a gal on a dating site, we talked on the phone a few times, one day I came home from work and went to bed, was dead tired, she called me 22 times in two hours, while I was trying to sleep. I decided not to continue cause of that was to many calls