I used to be a raging alky. I drank heavily every night. I put whiskey in my coffee in the mornings. I have been sober for a few months, I got drunk for the first time in a long time in late February. It’s finals week and I have 4 finals within 24 hours starting in three hours, and I woke up in the middle of the night feeling anxious and restless and starting chugging. I found myself right where I was a year ago, drinking on my back porch at 3am, and made myself vomit every bit of it right back out.
Who here is/was an alcoholic, and how did you overcome it?
Im considering AA because I will be 21 soon. My friends buy me booze now but they watch how much I drink and make sure im not having more than a drink a night- they drink, but they’re not alcoholics. Well one of them is borderline alcoholic. Ok no he is an alcoholic. He has a heart condition, has has had multiple open heart surgeries and has a pacemaker and takes meds to stay alive. I don’t blame him, I’ve never asked but I assume his life expectancy is shorter than the average person’s.
But I caught myself this morning before getting drunk before finals- which would have been ■■■■■■■ ugly- but I am feeling like I might just relapse completely once I can legally buy liquor. I still think about alcohol when I am stressed, and sometimes I just wish I was still an alcoholic, I was numb to everything back then, I didn’t care or get stressed- the only thing that worried me was getting my hands on more liquor. I am signed up for summer classes and they’re gonna suck, and I am worried about relapsing, I nearly relapsed this morning, I mean I did but I immediately changed my mind and made myself projectile vomit.
and here’s a little known fact- pure vanilla extract is 90 proof. You can buy a fifth-sized bottle of it, at least I did and wasnt carded. It causes gastrointestinal distress but it gets the job done. I drank a whole bottle of it one time and had terrible cramps and diarrhea but I was too drunk to care.