I have a pattern where in when ever i ride my bike to office and come back the thoughts seems to suck me into the darkest areas possible in my brain. What could i do to overcome such weird thoughts and imaginations? something small and constructive that can progressively help me?
For example, i might think that i get into an accident and get severely injured, or i am caught by police and will be fined but i do not have the money to pay, some one get badly injured because of me, someone shouts at me for reckless riding, etc…
Listening to music or some books while riding does not seem to improve the situation. Riding slow and watching the traffic is all i am doing in the midst of weird thinking pattern, but i dont get a good feel out of it.
Thats a good idea. But sometimes i feel bored to listen to anything. Fact is that i miss lot of words and sentences while listening. Mind gets too stressed.
Humming or saying something over and over again to drown out everything else?
I spend a lot of my time on my bike saying something over and over again. One of things I say, over and over again, is “thank you,” for everything, including being alive, and being able to ride my bike. It helps me to be able to just look at the view.
[I am not schizophrenic but I was once psychotic, and am paranoid.]