Ive seen your posts @Joker youre a strong guy. Dealing with a stressful job like you have and trying to get the mental health team to get off their ass and help would be too much for most “normal” people. Esp when dealing with what you went through when younger
No need to worry about posting here man, youve got a lot to unload. Just know that your suffering will become a great strength one day, I know you have it in you to keep going and Im sure youll find good help one day. In the meantime try not to give up hope. Easier said than done yeah but if this is Hell then kick the devils ass and take the throne man