How does it start?
Is it like a thought that just shows up one day very small but then over some period snowballs into something large and uncontrollable?
When I had my psychotic break I believed some stuff that I never before thought I could ever believe. Now every once and awhile a thought will pop into my head, and I’m afraid of it.
I was doing the crossword earlier, where different names for satan was the theme. Then I just had this thought of, what if the devil is real, wouldn’t that be pretty scary, huh. Then I tried to imagine it and actually started to feel a little scared.
Anyway, I hope it really is a random thought that won’t come around again.