When you push yourself to get better with schizophrenia what do you have to go through?

Things I fear if I lost my disability are having to get up in the morning and work full time.

I fear going through suicidal thoughts and feelings, feeling like eternal hell on earth, extreme frustration and agitation and guilt, and so on.

are some of these things and more what a schizophrenic should expect when trying and using thier willpower to get better with schizophrenia?