It may feel good at the moment but the energy changes me. It makes me a worse person. Makes me angry, lose empathy, depressed.
I feel like I can’t tolerate anything right now. I have work tomorrow and do NOT want to go. I don’t want to. I’m tired of that job. That’s why I left working there as a permanent teacher but it’s the only thing making me money at this point. I just want to take my classes. I just want to leave home. I’m tired of my life. I’m not happy. I’m not happy. I’m not happy.