i’d say it was the sexual side effects of meds 
what about you?
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I dont know…
Paranoia.1515151515
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I don’t care at all about the sexual side effects. The worst thing about sz is the destruction it causes to your life and also torturous side effects like akathisia.
For me it’s mostly not being able to trust my own mind.
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The paranoia, and subsequently, sound sensitivity.
I don’t think anyone’s going to do anything to me physically, but they might say something insulting, real or imagined, or some combination of the two.
Right now no ■■■■■■■ sleep
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Lack of drive and motivation
Lack of sexual feeling due to meds
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For me its the unsafe feeling, that someone may just walk up and punch me at anytime. That ppl are always bullying me or trying to bring me down and the disapointment in self that what i may be thinking or feeling may not actually be true. Avoidance of ppl, i may have missed put on learning critical life skills for my age and of course the enjoyment of relaxibg with friends. Although i do laugh and crack jokes with family and close friends.
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lack of motivation, avolition, flat affect
For me, the worst thing about sz is cognitive impairment. This cognitive impairment contributed to my chronic fatigue because I always tried to do more by my brain and then my brain was worn out.
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Not being able to compete with normals.
I’ve lived enough for two lives and I’m 47! I’d like to have just had a job and lived like everyone else. I couldn’t do that and I find myself living with my parents. It’s not the best thing but I make it great! I have fun and have a great support network. It’s sad for my love life but that is the breaks…
Still. I was smart once. I was cool and engaging. I did the best I could with what I had but I still find it frustrating I couldn’t compete with those normal folk. With better meds you youngsters should see better results!
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Not being able to trust what’s real or not.
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Phychosis, I think the fear is what makes you not to act “normally” when you are out or with other people on the other hand it could be the Fuc@#ing voices on your head commenting everything that you do
But not all is bad , one of the positives things about having sz is that you meet and know ( when you can) a lot of wonderful people who are there to support and lead you when the bad days area coming, sz made me the person that I am today , made me kind, patience, and open mind with other people’s illness
I know that there are a lot of bad things about having sz but here in Colombia we say " No importan las cosas malas , mira adelante y continua tu Camino en la Vida"
Think positive !! And smile every time you can!!
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I loosed control over mind.
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I feel like a loser the whole time and that’s why I don’t have a girlfriend. Who’s going to date someone who thinks they a loser…
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Cognitive impairment. I’ve never had so much trouble thinking and understanding things in my life. I was always smart and getting top grades, but now it’s difficult for me to figure out a simple set of instructions or follow a recipe.
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@anon20318121, I also want to earn money like you. In start of illness I was tried to control the situation by mind (or thoughts). But it gives me schizophrenia. If I started to earn money at that time then I think my condition would be better.
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Anxiety is a bitch 
I hope you will, keep trying my friend…
Never give up on your dreams
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