Taking high dose horse tranquilizers and being sedated 24/7? I also have to kill my testosterone and high sex drive, get fat gain 170lb get man boobs, to feel closer to normal. Staying in bed 24/7 mostly sleeping. I also have no access to a pdoc so i can’t change meds. My last Dr gave up on me and said there is no help possible for me.
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There no point to anyones life disability or not, life is to experience it…
There is no purpose anyone has in life.
Our job as a living human is to just experience it.
If not experience it, observe it until our time comes.
I understand your question. I ask it myself over and over again.
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I am suffering to make my parents happy.
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Maybe for you, not for all of us.
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I agree we live in constant suffering.
I think normal people live in constant suffering too based on their socio economic status. Or other issues.
But imagine the poor living working 3 jobs. That’s suffering too. To raise their kids.
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But doesn’t work give us a purpose in life?
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Also having children give us a purpose in life.
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I agree. 。°。°。°。°。°
But i hope you don’t take the option of ending life.
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I do? I have ups and downs but there’s no constant suffering. Just some good days mixed wth some shite days.
The thing for some of us is - ups and downs are better than - feeling flat nothing.
Complete apathy which I think I can relate with @aziz.
I also feel like i am suffering for my spouse.
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I can’t experience life and I can’t observe it as I forgot what life is.
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Suffering is experiencing life. I know that sucks.
Im not sure if im making any sense. This is how i been trying to stay alive.
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My mom was the town bike.
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Thats sad. On Abilify I had sex addiction, I had sex with stranger sex workers several times a month for 8yrs, I probably had sex with over 100 stranger. I am lucky to not have caught any STDs. I used to feel bad about it but not anymore as I stopped doing that in 2019.
I think it worked out better for me than her being chaste. Wouldn’t have been born.
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Well.
I’m fat.
I have man boobs.
But
I also have my own place to live
I have psychosocial rehabilitation.
I have a beautiful woman.
I have a good job and a car.
I have good family connections.
I have a couple friends.
I stay on meds and take care of myself.
It’s not that far away ---- if you want change it takes willpower and forcing yourself to make positive changes in life.
Once you get ‘over the hump’ life’s rewarding again, it’s just a lot of hard work…
Maybe start small, like walking a mile a day?
Drink coffee instead of soda
Find a laid back job
Under stand the most precious things in life is the small things to cherish 
hope this helps
Another thing ---- You and I are probably not much different, if I can get on my feet after the crap I dealt with, so can you
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All that I am trying to convey is that he doesn’t have to live that way