What was your first sz voice?

For me it was a crying baby, it was 2yrs before my diagnosis.

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I wonder why its a crying baby.

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It was the voice of a neighbor who was very mean to me IRL.

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For me, it was a male voice who would call me names. But it was very infrequent, in the beginning.

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The first voice I can recall hearing told me everything would be okay. That was when I was a kid and I was crying.

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A male voice laughing maniacally.

Now I have three of them.

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I think it was when i was 14 a voice was telling me to jump off the ferry into the ocean.

Later on around 17 i used to have a bit of commentary going about me in the 3rd person but i didnt really consider that hearing voices.

Then around 23 i heard a voice that was claiming to be god.

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Kinda dark but I was 20. I was forced to stay at my aunt’s and I hated it there. My cousin was an abusive alcoholic. I heard them telling me to set my mattress on fire.

I literally drug my mattress in the back and burned it, under a tree mind you. Almost started a fire. Didn’t thankfully.

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I was working somewhere and they fired someone I had a crush on, previously. I heard a male voice, that I knew wasn’t someone around me, say; what a jerk! I didn’t know if they were talking about the man I had a crush on, or my supervisor.

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I could not remember clearly as I had so many episodes. Mostly it was related to go off and suicide. Or someone constantly criticizing me I cannot do anything even small things in life. I was totally not in control of my life and it went so wrong.

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For me the voices wasn’t very well formed into something I could recognize as a spoken language. The first word sounded like it said hamburger. Then it asked me for a piece of pizza. " Can I have a piece of pizza" it asked me while I was still eating pizza.

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I hear no voices, only a few with a couple of years between them.

But, i remember, long ago -

I heard my own voice telling me what i would say to my communication partner, so there’s then a feeling left, don’t matter if i speak out the words or not.

Like two different timelines in body and mind, or when combined with broadcast delusion two channels

Mostly before i got in psychosis.

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My mum was letting me stay with her while i was psychotic to try to help me. I got the crazy idea to just pack some clothes and essentials and leave in the middle of the night. As i was in the closet deciding on shirts, a loud mans voice yelled “what are you doing?” From behind me it sounded like. Then a few other things like “idiot” throughout the night. It was freaky and really stopped me in my tracks.
Ive had voices various other times like thinking i could hear my neighbors whispering about me through the walls, plotting to kill me. But generally i havent actaully heard voices much in my walk with sza. Mostly delusions and paranoia and mania.
Oh yeah. And also the radio and tv and phone calls saying things they didnt actually say.

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My first voice was a command voice telling me at the age of 8 that I needed to run away and kill myself with a train because of the abuse I was suffering from. I thought it was God, and cried because I failed three times before my ninth birthday.

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One of my first voices I remember was a voice claiming to be from Syracuse University doing research on me through a brainchip.

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a distorted voice telling me to kill myself and narrating what i was doing

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First voice I heard was around 5 years old saying the word “juniper.”

Fast forward to psychosis: it was a distorted male voice saying “found you.”

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It was on my sixth birthday. I remember a voice saying, “So, you are six years old now?”. I was startled but assumed it was just what happened to you at six years old, you got a voice. Eventually I treated it as my own consciousness. I knew I was different from other people but couldn’t connect the two until psychosis.

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It’s strange but… I was for a long time acting a bit strange, and probably, really delusional but first voice appeared late.

I remember I was deeply curious about paranormal and “spiritual awakening” and overall spiritual stuff before actual psychosis. My first voice said “esoteric”

It was quite strange because I rarely used words like that. So I started googling it, reading every kind of ■■■■■■■■ about numerology, astrology, spirituality and more illogical stuff.
I remember I believed in voices more than in actual people.

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I can’t remember first voice I remember I would here people shouting from outside and heard a voice saying I was in the same league as kylie minogue

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