Voices
I went to a town today and heard a voice say that I wonder around like a sad little cow
They call me a loner
Are your voices similar
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My voices call me a hypocrite and a liar and a bitch. Or that I must cut myself or kill my loved ones. Wicked bastards they are. And the other day my voices said I must climb the stairs - or else bad will happen to me. Weird things like that.
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My voices mock me. Call me liar. Tease me. Laugh at me. They say Iām no good. That I will get fired. That nobody likes me. They talk behind my back.
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Same @Comatose 
My own head is my bully.
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My weirdest voice said, āAll neck and no meatā. I have no idea what this means.
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I was just thinking about that a few days ago! Still makes me laugh.
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When I walk anywhere public Seraton tells me that Iām walking awkwardly and people are laughing. He says that Iām going to trip, that I donāt know how to walk, that my face is twisted up and everyone is staring and thinking thereās something wrong with meā¦ I hate walking in public places!
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Yeah I can relate to the walking thing and often when someone is at the side of my eye (Maybe donāt read this part) it goes a bit horror movie style and it looks like their staring at me with black eyes and mouth.
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Well, I have my Seraton at my right side and he takes almost all of my attention. I do think people are staring all the time. They look scary enough just being humansā¦ so much judgement and hatred. 
Iām not surprised their faces get deformed in your experience.
They talk about time travel, cures for everything, curing death, healthy organization, the science behind resurrection. And they keep repeating how there is no free will.
They talk about free will quite a bit actually because we all seem to believe we are something we arenāt. They just go on and on about how things are things and things always work a certain way. Non stop with this one. They seem to think itās massively important to know this.
They talk about other universes and life forms. They talk about how everything comes from the pure energy eternal material/universe.
Tonight they were like āListen, free ā ā ā ā doesnāt exist, itās not real, there is no free ā ā ā ā . People have to give that one up one day. Free things donāt exist, when you think they do you are only creating slaves and disease and death.ā They talked for a bit on this one.
They talked for awhile on the logistics of what the ancients called miracles. There werenāt really miracles but just what can be done when other places and things interact in certain ways with our world. Like an apport, itās coming from somewhere, if you want to call that a miracle go ahead as long as a miracle is just how other worlds interact with ours.
They like to talk about how nothing is ever empty, there is no empty spaces anywhere. The night sky they say is full of things but we just canāt see them. Emptiness is never a reality anywhere they said.
One day they said our universe came from pure energy in a conversion process. Everything in it can be converted back, including me. I could become pure energy and an immortal by way of a scientific process of conversion.
They go āeveryone knows you are here. we all know you guys are on earth, we always knew you were here.ā Iām like ā ā ā ā , everyone knows?! Oh ā ā ā ā ! What do you mean everyone man?! Everyone?!
Said they were going to destroy the earth to. I donāt know really if thatās true itās just what they said, that they were literally going to destroy the planet. Nothing anyone could do about it either. Why? Who the ā ā ā ā knows really, could be for fun, could be because earth is terrible, you never know. Maybe itās a mercy killing to be honest.
They arenāt getting into the hideous details right now but they said they can see. They can see everything man. Nothing here is a secret to them, they know everything that goes on here whether itās good or bad. They know all of it and why it happens. They can see why we do things, not just what we do. Creepy? Could be, maybe not, weāll see i guess. Onward!
Sometimes they explain magic to. What it is and how itās used mostly. Nothing magical about it really although itās powerful. They called us all idiots though so we just muck it up usually. And then they went on how there is no free ā ā ā ā again.
They go like this āHey, look over there at that tree outside your house.ā So i look at the tree and the light and shadow and tree forms a detailed face. ā ā ā ā ās everywhere, in the stucco, on paintings, in the rocks, the trees and clouds, the mountains, grass, on my own body it happens.
Alot of philosophical debate as well, alot. To much philosophy sometimes actually.
They tell me how mind reading happens, itās eletrical and chemical, itās easy to understand like a scanner or a cord attached to a device basically.
They talk about peace and how to achieve it.
Lotās of stuff.
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Heard from Plague two nights ago. He said something like
āWhat a sad little girl, thinking God loves youā¦ā
I just ignored him.
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My voices are so bad that I donāt even feel safe telling people here cause I feel like they will find out what is going on in my head and think Iām some crazy weirdo that thinks stuff that only a bad person would think! Some of my voices do not even relate to what Iām doing and that gets me mad because I canāt focus cause that same voice of the same thing just keeps saying it and saying it until I move on and forget it but it always comes back like cmon man why u again. If I only heard it once and never again I would be okay and life a little better but noooo they just keep coming back over and over its kinda stressing at times but what can I do shoot myself so they go away like I donāt want to die but that seems like the best thing to do at times for them to finally end but then for some reason when I try to say okay itās time to die I start to think that some way I will be reincarnated and I will repeat to come back alive and have these voices again so its like when do I get a break life sucks and maybe so does the after life