What’s your longest depression?

DX'd - Sz/SzA
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I haven’t felt happy in about 7 years. But this is a new low. I’ve been this way since mid-October.

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Mine is seasonal. For some reason, I feel rather depressed in the summer.

The happiest I get is in the winter time.

Fall and spring are meh.

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I’ve been depressed ever since I got this condition, 2016…hence sza diagnosis. Good Times sigh

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That’s really hard @anon57786250 to have it every year.

@anon90843118
Do you have highs?

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No I don’t experience mania, except wen I was at the onset of psychosis times… I’m sorry that you are experiencing a new low, do you know what has triggered that?

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My longest was about 14 years with a year or two in there where I was still depressed, but not suicidal depressed.

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No, I don’t know the triggers.

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@LED
I’m at year seven. How did you make it through with staying alive?

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I honestly have no idea. I was in and out of the hospital a lot. Meds were helping. I exercised excessively to distract myself.

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Okay. But now no depression?

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It’s been back off and on. But now, on Cymbalta, I’m doing alright.

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Happy for you!!

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I was depressed from age 2 to age 45 then, it all suddenly ended. I am now 59 and depression free for the last 14 years.

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I cant really remember my moods that well, only recent: January-March I was pretty depressed of this year. I don’t have good insight into my moods though

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Five years, from age 15-20.

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That’s amazing and encouraging for others

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I’d say from age 8-18

Tw mentions of abuse

It was a rough childhood. I had so many suicide attempts. The abuse and my mental health just made a hell of a time.

My parents were pretty abusive cause they didn’t know how to deal with a child like me with so many mental health issues. We’d argue about meds mainly (though there was plenty of other things we argued about) and I’d get my ass beat for it.

I first attempted suicide at age 8. And I became “We” at some point around there. My hallucinations became scary but no one helped me.

Then at 10 my psychiatrist started sexually abusing me and that kept going til I was 16. She gaslit me and used my mental health against me. She manipulated me over and over and over again.

Luckily I got away from her
But

It was impossible to be happy in a situation like that.

I’m just happy I survived

But luckily I’m better now. I’m happier now. Things have gotten better

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The longest one that I remember feeling depressed nearly every day was about 2 months. Usually, I just get exhausted from dealing with voices or whatever and people mistake that for depression. Or, they assume that suicidality can only be caused by a depressive mood episode and not a delusion. And even still, I’ve never had a depressive episode that wasn’t the direct result of a positive symptom.

edit: Granted, I did have the “loss of interest in activities that used to be enjoyable” symptom, but all of the activities that I dropped were physical. I was so tired and just didn’t have the energy.

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On and off since High School. I’m 36 this year. Had some symptoms of sz before the break at 30. The antidepressants are helping a bit atleast.

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From late 2012 to late 2013 was the darkest period mood wise.

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