My friend told me ‘you are no longer having any reaction’ when someone insults me or talks behind my back or things like that sort, I am no longer getting angry or having any reaction…
I just think that they are dumb, got nothing better to do, and also after major grandeur, humiliation and trauma, I don’t care much.
Do you think this is weird? Certain things annoy me like asking how much I make or other personal stupid questions but I just rarely have any reaction of any sort.
When I got fired for the second time, I got depressed and cried but I was not angry.
People sometimes tell me they wish I showed emotions more, and that it would be healthy for me to let it out once in a while.
I just don’t see the point.
I guess I wished I could show the positive emotions more, but I’m glad I’m able to control the negative ones.
It isn’t surprising that tranquilizers tranquilize us.
In addition to that, some people get inured to some kinds of bad experiences. Soon after I lived through a tornado without any injury, I slept really well through thunder storms.
It just seems natural for some people to learn that an instinctively bad experience didn’t hurt them.
I do feel flatter. I think it’s from depression. I don’t like it. It’s like I’ve become less human the worst part is I have to accept this for the rest of my life
I actually like it to be honest. I like that I don’t care much about these things so I can focus on better things like achieving goals. Being able to control your reaction is a very powerful thing. So don’t be sad about it.
Another good thing about it is how strong I have become. Apart from symptoms, I like that I do almost everything by myself.
I am just a bit confused about my personality, I am not sure if this is me or I am a different person? I am different on each medication and it seems I change so much?
I still care about these things but I just can’t feel like I can express my reaction well anymore that’s the flattening part for me…
For example, I can’t stand up for myself as well as I used to because I can’t handle the stress so well if they react badly to what I say.
It’s good that you can not care in the first place as much and redirect your attention.
Depends on when you got ill too. I was like that the first 2 years after getting first ill. I got ill in 2010, I felt I was almost back to my normal self only in mid-2014. It takes time to heal, it is not easy. So just give it time. It is 2018 and I still have flashbacks and intrusive thoughts.
Like you @anon90843118, I feel like I’m really sensitive to stress right now. The littlest things seem to send me flying apart. I guess I’m still reeling from my psychosis that happened last summer. It’s reassuring to hear that things do get better.
maybe your learning not to take things personally, maturing. Consider the sources more.I would think that’s a sign of self esteem. I mean just because someone says something doesn’t make it true.
