Hahā¦ I meanā¦
disĀ·tress
extreme anxiety, sorrow, or pain.
stress
- pressure or tension exerted on a material object.
- a state of mental or emotional strain or tension resulting from adverse or very demanding circumstances.
For me the anxiety was a definite thingā¦ much aligned with @Minniiās post up thereā¦ I felt a constant need to undo what was doneā¦ felt it unbroken for a solid 2 years at leastā¦ it was the fundamental layer of my psycheā¦ what can I do to escape this mess and go back to what life was before the development of psychosis.
Pain and sorrow came and wentā¦ The pain was from the confusion of undying noise in the mindā¦ the sorrow was for myself as it felt my soul had fallen and was damned to hellā¦ I wouldnāt even get to live a normal life and then burnā¦ I got an early ticket. (Thank god for atheismā¦ thatās just not trueā¦ it eventually does start to subside for someā¦ higher powers have nothing to do with itā¦ I pulled myself out of that madnessā¦ there was no damnation involved aside from the abstract of the subconscious mind trying to tame the errant driver.)
Had I not seen that definitionā¦ had I not read minniiās postā¦ hmmmā¦
āWhat is distress in psychosis?ā
Well itās different from person to personā¦ Feeling to sexual to liveā¦ Feeling transparentā¦ Being a sucker for the hallucinationsā¦ Delusions arenāt decided, they are subconsciously believedā¦
There even comes a point where you gain such insight over the nature of your particular psychosis that it is nearly predictable and it still wonāt go awayā¦
Having the experience that would suggest your closest family members are made of something different, that they are in the hive mind, that they are essentially evil in their folding in with the flock and how that shows their subservience to a system which punishes you.
I sayā¦ the depths of distress in psychosis are a bottomless as they are variedā¦
Good luck @mel3475
Schizophrenic souls are the god damn champions of suffering distressā¦ this ā ā ā ā even ā ā ā ā ā with our dreams. Some of them donāt get a break for a ā ā ā ā ā ā ā secondā¦ you know how you feel at the end of the day when youāre laying down drifting offā¦ that peace that over takes you?
Weāre so worn out and tired of hearing voices we donāt even get to experience thatā¦ we just blackout at some pointā¦ only to wake up to more chaos in the morning. Whatās worse than the distress itself is the total absence of peace.
Luckily for me though, neuroplasticity via CBT and lifestyle changes weāre enough for me to start winning the fight and maybe escape the valley. (Years lost in that process)