ok, so on Zyprexa my head is emptier. I have less of my questions in my head. I was having blurred vision before the meds and I knew it was psychical. now, even this is better. but besides that, I still have this big pain in my chest and in my head. it is really tormenting. it takes my energy too. what is this? klonopin relieves this so maybe its not a depression… I feel heavy, sad, always with this low in my soul and plus, it really hurts. I often say that my soul is hurting… but why klonopin relieves this better than anything else? do I really need a lift or maybe I need more than everything a calm?
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If you’re having chest pains you should tell your doctor immediately.
and she will do what ever? ive tried every ap on the market. its not a chest pain, its inside of my torse in fact, inside of me… its my soul who is hurting and Ive always thought that the soul is behind the chest, but I guess its a delusion…
Are you speaking metaphorically @Anna1?
Because if you are not and having actual physical chest pains, you should see a doctor right away.
its not somatic guys. its psychical I am sure. its just that I am suffering, I am always soo low… I am not for a doctor, its my psyche you see… I just dont know why I have those pains. klonopin relieves it you see…
I think I know what you’re talking about. I didn’t exactly feel pain, but my soul feels tense… Internally it just feels off. I am writing it off as anxiety or fear though… Almost like an akithisia feeling.
its like some ball of pain inside of me yes… maybe my soul feels tense like you say, I4CU… do you think we just need time on the meds? I come from a state where I was keeping all in myself. I guess I have problems expressing. but its hard to express myself cause sometimes I just dont think well, I cant express my dumbness also you see…
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Maybe it’s anxiety?
Anxiety causes muscles to contract, so a sedative (Klonopin) causes muscles to relax and it also slows down respiration.
Is it difficult and painful to take deep breaths?
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Hmmm… Possibly just need time on the meds. How long have you been on yours? Been on mine 10 and a half months. I don’t really experience that feeling in my chest anymore, used to be 24/7. And I understand not being able to express yourself, I feel the same way. I could never describe the feeling in my chest except as tension, anxiety so my dr also gave me Klonopin as well, didn’t work for me though.
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no, its not difficult to take deep breaths kindness… its just a pressure in my chest, maybe its a depressive thing. I got ragy because of it today…
I4CU, I am 11 months on my Zyprexa but maybe I am somebody for whom meds are not working. I am tired to suffer. I need to feel emotions, not my brain in my head. you know, I feel my brain in my head, that’s how is my illness… I cant communicate with people, I cant love, I cant talk, I hate this illness… I am so scatred that ill remain forever like this. I suffer tremendously physically because of it. never met a schizophrenic who was suffering physically like this…
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From what it sounds like to me you have exactly what I had… It was impossible to describe, I just wanted it to end. My sister and I ended up calling it akithisia. Which would have been caused by my invega. How many mg of zyprexa are you on?
from what I know akathisia is the need to move. some kind of agitation when you walk around the house. I am not like this now… I feel my brain in my head and this ball in my soul. I guess I was like this before meds. I am on 7,5 mg of Zyprexa, its really not much…I dont feel love I4Cu, you know…I dont have positive emotions but I never had them in my illness. I want my emotions for god sake… maybe its just a level that I should go through… there is a probability that this is anger returned against me …
I mean I didn’t even have the agitation to walk around the house… And we still came up with akithisia. Maybe it’s not the same. But like, I wanted to cry and couldn’t. I didn’t feel like I had emotions. Now I just don’t think about it. But sometimes I still have that feeling in my brain, like the back is going crazy and the front is numb. But it has been so much better since I started exercising on the treadmill. Maybe you can make yourself go for some walks? my anger is also back, it’s not a quality I enjoy but it’s something right? lol
and do you think that this anger can be lifted with meds I4CU? its returned against me. but I was a zombie before meds. maybe now its difficult cause I find my emotions even though that they remain a bit suppressed and negative ones… I know that when anger is returned against us, you go in a depression… I also find that I lack positive and constructive thinking… maybe klonopin helps cause it relieves anger. maybe finally its anger what I feel, a ball of anger inside my body…
I don’t believe the anger can be cured by meds, maybe if you were so sedated by them… But you don’t want that. Maybe you are starting to find your emotions, even though they’re negative ones. Maybe it is anger you feel in your chest.
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